my little diary

year 2010

2010-01-15T13:23:00.002+08:00

Year 2010, a new beginning for all. been a long time since i ever blog. as was too busy with work and website and school stuff. a good year or a bad year? been hearing news on overseas country with snowstorms, slides, earthquake etc. recent was the haiti. it sad to hear all this news. and more bad news at work too. many may be leaving or have to leave. the gang have split up as per fiona say. only left me and sh. and sh might be leaving too. and i due to some circumstances, is leaving too.

but a headache as in to take full time study or part time study as have already started to find work and going for interview. who can tell me. study full time means no income. study part time mum scared me unable to cope. haiz. what to do. in the world, if don't get at least a degree, don't think able to survive in singapore. mum did ask me to give up taking degree, but i don't want. my choice of upgrading myself and world don't allow that too. good excuse. haha.

just hope year 2010 be a very good year for me. if work, able to work in a nice, and good environment with good benefits unlike now. if study, able to study finish asap. wish me luck ba.

Fly Kite

2009-12-16T13:21:00.002+08:00

last sunday when to marina barrage with my aunt and uncle and cousin. oh, how to say? have a lot of fun until i fell against a wall. haha. didnt see that as i was walking backward trying to make the kite fly high. very tiring, but fun. hope can go fly kite again. haha. still play eagle and chicken too. hehe. lazy to update more as need to prepare work and school stuff. haiz.

Pulau Ubin

2009-12-07T13:21:00.002+08:00

saturday went to pulau ubin with adrian, kayne, jeff and chwee keong. met early at 7.30am tampines int, but me and kayne meeting rachel to go together so met at 7am at amk, but in the end, rachel sick, couldnt go, so no choice, took a cab down to changi village. had breakfast there, waited for them three at the terminal till 8.30am. off we go, set off to pulau ubin. took the ferry, reach there, straight rent the bicycle. cycle many bumpy road, lead by kayne. and puddles too. so muddy, oh my god, wear the wrong shoe there. got lots of mosquito bites too.

finally cycle to one place, short of breath and water, we saw a auntie. faster sat down and chat and drink water. the other was busy chatting while me busy trying to smoke myself with a tray on smoke. didnt know the smoke will chase the mosquito away. after that, cycle to the tower. so nice. but too tired to go other place, so only went the tower. suddenly i shouted, the guys all got shocked. haha. GOT MONKEY!! on the tree. haha. after that, cycle back and actually wanted to have a drink there, but as it is going to rain, we set off back to singapore. after that, we find a place to rest. haha, until about 5pm we all went home. quite a fun trip, but i not going there anymore. so many mosquite bite on my hand and leg. boohoo, rather go east coast. haha.

小吉祥

2009-11-25T19:58:00.004+08:00

感觉它好像离我而去。是生是死，我分不清楚。没反应。为什么? 那么短的时间的相处，我是多么的快乐。突然走了，我仿佛不知所措。我不甘心，为什么。为什么那么快离我而去？你来的时候，不吃，懒懒散散，每天都在睡觉。是我不会养，还是水源的关系? 每个都说，现在的水，很难养水族动物。突然没心情。只希望这不是真的。壳软了，没精神了，不动了，不应我了。只记得，但你爬着，喊你时，你竟然转过来看我。这一幕，让我和妈开心笑翻了天。不在了，不再会有那些快乐的时光了。我会永远记得你。不管你是否生或死。

工作

2009-11-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

现在很忙，忙着找事。能星期六和天做的事。不然，好闷。有时想出去，找不到人。哈哈。却有时喜欢一个人的感觉。对工作越来越嫌，因为某种原因，不想说也不能说。“女儿”忙着考试。其他忙着读书或做工。只好安排星期六和天的事情，来解闷。这段时间，忍着点吧。明年会是个好的开始。新的开始。不再像从前。有时，会找不到“自己”。一个真正的自己。但，不会放弃寻找自己。一个我了解的自己。我要赶快准备好明年的事。让我好好加油吧。反正，今时今日，已经不如往事。什么都改变了。只能当成回忆、梦境陪伴我

战胜死穴

2009-11-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

不完美

2009-11-19T08:31:00.000+08:00

专心工作

2009-11-17T08:21:00.000+08:00

挑战自己

2009-11-13T17:57:00.000+08:00

语言的力量

2009-11-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

Sat and Sun Tour

2009-11-05T19:09:00.005+08:00

上个星期六，和kayne 去租车。早上去吃麦当劳。好兴奋，因为有的玩monopoly。哈哈。过后，搭巴士去，但是时间来不及。只好途中搭的士。到了那里，更兴奋。可以驾车了。到了那里，竟然没有gps 借我。好可惜。没办法。靠自己。哈哈。刚拿到车，有点不习惯。到处驾。先去找fiona，到了那里，我们绕了好久。有点不熟路。驾来架去。终于等到fiona了。然后我们就去了woodland checkpoint，又有点走错路。哈哈。终于安全送fiona到checkpoint。我们到处绕，到处走。过后去了great world city，觉得有点无聊，便去看戏。看了一半，收到kristen的简讯。拉了kayne一起去喝酒，但是先去载她们。雨下的很大，完全看不到路。到了那里，接了她们，又有气的事发生。又是elaine。埋怨我们为什么选下雨天出门，好奇怪啊，天要下雨我们管的了吗？我们能控制吗？一路上好专心的开车，突然间，一个auntie突然杀进我的路，差点撞上我的车。到了那里，打给elaine，她的脾气好坏，在发脾气，我好不想和她说话，却又低声下气的和她说话。吃了，她回家了，我们继续去喝我们的酒。kayne帮我叫了没酒精的酒。留到一点多，就走了。先送她们回家。最后是kayne，因为靠近阿妈家，所已会回家。到家了，好累。

星期天，早早十点前，去接了layxuan, 然后又从我的家，去接whaychuin，然后就上expressway去接qizhi和stan。有点迷路。哈哈，到了那里，已经是十一点半。我们就一路到bugis。吃了午餐，就去"秋瓜"，哈哈。唱到六点，好累。就到suntec去吃"不肥"。吃到十点多，再来linchong和whaychuin回家。那一段过程，聊了好多好多。好开心。回到家，要十一点多。冲了凉，早早睡了。早上驾了车到ang mo kio 等kayne和weipeng，顺便接了debbie上班。好好，不用等，不用挤巴士。但是鞋子却坏了，幸好cheer有卖拖鞋，之后将就将就。好累。

sat morning, woke up very early, to pick up the rental car, but too early, reach ang mo kio, went to have breakfast. after that, took bus to parkway, but too long, so halfway took taxi. so excited, finally got the car. but sad is that don't have the gps, sad. after that, drove to pick fiona, but still wasnt use to the car, also have a hard time finding the place. haha. at least send her to woodland checkpoint safetly. haha. after that, went to great world city, but at bit bored, so went to watch movie, my sister's keeper. quite a nice show. halfway receive msg from kristen, so ask if kayne want to tag along, went to pick them up. the rain is raining so heavily that i totally cant see the road. when pick them up, something make me angry. elaine again. call to ask why choose a rainy day to go out, excuse me, the date was set earlier before, how we know will rain, i cant control whether it raining or not what. reach there, call her, still have to take her temper. wtf, you are right in everything ok. i not in the wrong, but still have to lower myself to talk nicely to you. when introduce to my colleague, you also abit not friendly. there nothing i can say. after that, when to drink, but i didnt drink, so kayne order a non-acoholic drink for me. after that, send them home and last was kayne. cos i know how to go home at sembawang. reach home going 2am. wow. so tired.

the next day sunday woke up quite early, went out before 10am to pick layxuan, and went back my place to go to toa payoh and pick whaychuin up, from there go expressway to pick qizhi and stanlie. but was kind of lost on the way, haha. reach there around 11.30am. wow. then after that, went to bugis. meet up with linchong and angela. went to top world to sing till 6pm. have lots of fun. after that, went to suntec to eat buffet dinner. chat alot. have a lot of fun. after that drove linchong home first. after that was whaychuin and myself. haha. reach home about 11pm. next day monday drove to ang mo kio to pick kayne and weipeng up. on the way went to pick up debbie and off we go to company. such a nice feeling driving. if it was my own car. haha. so tired...

成功焦虑症

2009-10-28T08:32:00.000+08:00

火化场

2009-10-26T08:21:00.002+08:00

昨天去了dingsheng的丧礼，见他最后一面。每个人都在讨论，有没有梦到他。我却梦到全班，那开心的日子。但是，alan竟然梦到dingsheng要衣服和钱。我们就到附近的店去买了很多东西给他。有手提电脑，汽水，眼镜，衣服等等等。盖棺，出殡，火化。那一瞬间，突然没了知觉。整个人空白了。他就这么的走了。没了。但是，精神永远与我们同在。我们会帮你继续你要做的事。希望你到极乐世界会开心，快乐，守护你的家人。dingsheng，我们会永远记得你!

0408

2009-10-23T12:43:00.002+08:00

昨天正准备出门庆祝elaine 的生日，哪知，linchong 告诉我们dingsheng 生命危在旦夕，正在医院，呼吸有困难。没办法，告诉kristen我会迟到，先去医院。一路上，一直为dingsheng 祈祷，到了那里，看到了whay chuin, 以为他出来找我们，哪知他还不知道。alan 也到了。我们赶紧去找dingsheng. 本来听到是在病房，还没那么担心。谁知，一看到dingsheng, 有种说不出的感觉。朋友们陆陆续续的来，没多久，本来以为可以去找kristen 她们，两个钟头后，dingsheng 离我们而去。但是，男生们让我领悟到鼓励。dingsheng 一期间心跳好快，他听得到我们在和他说话，但是没反应。他已昏迷。dingsheng, 我们会永远记得你。你使我们团结起来。少了你，0408 就不一样了。我们会继续你想要做的事。你的精神与我们同在。

表达自己

2009-10-20T08:29:00.000+08:00

Big Wedding

2009-09-30T13:30:00.002+08:00

祝全天下有情人终成眷属！！！

放下姿态

2009-09-25T08:23:00.001+08:00

不对劲

2009-09-24T08:18:00.002+08:00

这几天好累，尤其是星期二。不说了。我的潜意识不对劲。有些事，清楚的潜意识是让我这么想，什么是对的，什么是错的。但是空虚的潜意识却大过清楚的潜意识，让我做出不对或不清楚自己在做什么。我怎么了？就有如今天等巴士的时候，一位陌生人，不知算不算，载我去ang mo kio 等公司的巴士，清楚的潜意识是不能上，但空虚的潜意识我却上了车。算是认识也算不认识的陌生人。也不知怎么讲。就像今天，本来天气晴朗，不到几秒，突然间乌云密布，整个天空黑了下来。来不及反应。在那乌云密布的一小部分，看到一片曙光。不知哪曙光会否被覆盖。咳、好想快点找回自己。让我清醒起来。我不能放弃。

haven been myself lately, been very tired. especially tuesday, dont wish to talk about it. not in a right state of mind. some thing, right state of mind told me to do the right and correct way, but the blur and blank state of mind, overpower it, making me doing stuff which i wasnt really know what i was doing. like today, was waiting for bus to ang mo kio, suddenly just went up a stranger van, stranger or not, i cant define, can say i kind of know, but also not very know. he drove me to ang mo kio. actually didnt want to go up the van, but the blur and blank state just overpower it and i went up, as if i really trust and doesnt care anything. what happening to me? today also was a very fine day, suddenly within minutes, the whole sky is fill with dark clouds. it so fast that you have no time to react. in that dark clouds, i saw a small portion of light. it kind of gave me a relieving mind, but still wonder if that small portion of light will be dark too. i need to find back the right me, the right state of mind. let me wake up, i won't give up or drop down so easily. i hope.

True Friends = bad guys

2009-09-13T11:43:00.002+08:00

yesterday was disappointed. was out as a group, but in the end, split. walking fast in city link wasnt wrong, as it too crowded, how to stop and wait suddenly. found a place and waited for them. but what i get in the end, black face and being ignored. very long had no go out with my group, was just enjoying the company, when this happen. you have changed. nobody care and concern for you. nobody understand you. have you ever concern for us before? the world doesnt revolve around you only. true friends tell the truth, and i know truth hurts. but isnt that what true friends are? do you really want those liar, boot-licking around you? what the point? many years of friendship so easy to broke up because of this small matter?

you wants people to understand you, have you understand us before? you want people concern you, have you ever concern for others before? there are often give and take, you cant always take. face it, you not young anymore, you have to learn to think. think out of the box. people do change due to environment, time, years. study, work, etc. but friendship never change. friendship is so fragile to you? i never stop trying, nevver stop trying to concern, talk to you. but what i get in the end? have you ever think of our shoes? have you think in other people shoes? you turning 22 soon, what have you learn and get during these years? you may hate what i said here, but i just stating the fact. truth hurts! i also wish to have friends who are true and tell me truth too. it may hurts, but i get to know what others think. from another viewpoint. i really hope you can wake up, think about it seriously. friendship will never change. we will still be there for it. you may ignore me for months, i dont mind, i only wish you know and understand our true hearts towards you.

Yellow Prison Run

2009-09-11T08:27:00.004+08:00

上个星期天，好早起来，去了黄饰带跑程。到了那里，好多人。8点开始，但是因为塞车，到了起点，已经8.30 了。我们就开始跑。我跑了十五分钟，就开始走了。哈哈。慢慢跑，也是一样。没办法。我就是参加走程。哈哈。不多说了，要开工了。

last sunday went for yellow ribbon prison run. nono, should be walk, suppose to start at 8am, but reach there at 8.30am, as traffic jam. so started running at the starting point, run for 15 min, walk liao, despite was a very slow pace run. haha. must train my stamina liao, for next year "walk" again. haha. cant talk much, need work liao.

埋葬痛楚

2009-09-11T08:22:00.000+08:00

安全感

2009-09-08T08:23:00.000+08:00

总是对的

2009-08-31T11:58:00.000+08:00

police report

2009-08-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

今天去搭巴士的时候，上巴士后，坐了下来，发现旁边有一架手机。看了看，应该属于学生的。没办法，要做工，只好赶着上巴士。下了班，就到警察局。有点紧张。不是因为做坏事，而是从来就没有进过。哈哈。走不到几步，一位警察就问我。就告诉他事情经过，他就帮我做警察报告。感觉好好。做了一件好事。

today when taking bus to work, got onto the bus, found a phone at the side. have a look at it, it seem to belong to a student. wasnt able to return as need to rush to work. so after work went to ang mo kio south neighbour hood police center. a police was standing outside, might be knowing that i was walking towards it as they have camera inside. so i told him my purpose going there, and he did a police report. gave me a copy of it. felt kind of relax and happy, as i did a good thing. many might think it silly to do that, but i done wat i think i was suppose to do.

2009-08-22T10:35:00.005+08:00

回来了。从普吉岛回来了。回来那天，好累，而且还食物中毒。上吐下泻。腹痛不得了，不能入睡。上班好没力，weipeng 也一样食物中毒。我们一直上厕所。终于熬过一天，去看医生，拿了一天病假，但是隔天照样上班。有事要做。但没想到，因为巴士的剧烈震动，使我更不舒服。到了公司，更不舒服。没办法，把病假单给了上司。就回家休息。冲了凉，从11点睡到5点多。连午餐都没吃。好不容易好多了。又回公司，weipeng没来。也是病的不轻。下午只是稍微上厕所久点，chow就叫alicia去厕所找我。好在我已经出来。两位都想我早回，但有些事还没完，所以没办法，忍到下班，再去看医生。医生给了多一天病假。病情起起落落。回到普吉岛那天。

星期五，好兴奋。好开心，但是背包好重。从早上终于等到下班。跟着大队出发。去到kranji,weipeng去拿手机。其他则买面包，等他们。过后赶上一辆巴士。到了关卡，匆匆忙忙过了关。有一幕真是吓死我。终于见识到“他们”的厉害。weipeng带我们去吃好料。然后安排男生们的住所。我就随weipeng去她家。冲了凉，就和yikching,siewlit一起去找weipeng的朋友，大好人。然后去找她哥。看到她和她哥的感情很好。但愿能发生在我身上。一定会。哈哈。回到她家，睡不到几小时，就要起来了。weipeng爸爸送我们到机场。到了那里，吃早餐，等其他人来。我们就飞了。

到了普吉岛，不知是累了，还是不知道。哈哈。我们到了酒店，卸下东西，就去找吃的。走着走着，就进了一间店。点了吃的，等了好久，全都饿了。一上菜，每桌都抢着要。哈哈。在那餐厅做了好久，就各自做各的东西。我随小孩，weipeng, ck, wicky去逛街，找裤子。哈哈。过后，忘了是否约了大伙做什么的。哈哈。只知道，我们回酒店时，发生了意外。不好的事已过去。事情已解决。过后，大伙各做各的，又忘了什么了。哈哈。走走买买，就回酒店吧。真的忘了。

第二天出海了。和一位外国妇女与她的孩子拍了照。坐着那快船，感觉不一样。慢慢的，离开那小岛，平静的海。随着那快艇，快速，快快地在海上奔驰漂浮，感觉好好，好快，好凉。不到几分钟，我们遇到“暴风雨”。哈哈。 fiona的妹妹和siewlit 淋的最多。哈哈。不到一下子，全多湿了。都还没下水呐，每个人都湿。当中，有几次快艇撞海浪，我们东倒西歪，也叫了好多次。好好玩。过后就下水玩。感觉不错。我们也到其他岛玩乐。吃午餐，休息。我们玩到旁晚。每个人都累了。回到酒店，大伙就准备梳洗，去按摩。女生们选择泰式按摩，我只做脚底按摩，siewlit 和xiao cai 做指甲。真舒服。

过后大伙到酒店集合，去看戏。有些部分不精彩，有点睡着。有些好好看。只有小孩和wicky没去。看完戏，就去拍些照片。真没想到，他们竟然这么美。超过我想象中的。不说真不知。然后全部回酒店，打算去吃海鲜。就打电话给小孩和wicky, 但是他们已经要睡了。没办法，我们自己去。吃到不知几点，慢慢走回酒店。突然他们说要去banana disco，我们就进去喝喝。fiona 和weipeng 让我刮目相看。真的被他们吓到。她们好geng。哈哈。真的。尤其fiona。有眼不识泰山。不久后，全回去休息，全部都好累。哈哈。至少第三天可以不用这么早起。我，weipeng 和ck 打算去买东西，所以想早点起来逛。哪知道，睡不起。哈哈。ck打电话来，才起来。真的好累。

我们先去吃早餐。看到fiona 和她妹妹正在吃。吃着吃着，我们就一起逛逛走走。到海边走走。浪还是那么的猛。欺山末欺海。终于知道这成语的厉害。哈哈。没买到任何东西，店还没开。就慢慢走回酒店，准备回家去。途中我们买了些土产。我终于买了gao sai 和芒果干。终于可以回家。但是有一大段时间在机场等。抵达新加玻时，我和weipeng,ck 一起搭德士回。回到家，看到臭脸。算了，整理完书包，冲凉，准备明天上班的东西。又要开工了。

沟通

2009-08-21T08:37:00.001+08:00

借口

2009-08-17T08:36:00.000+08:00

足迹

2009-08-14T08:34:00.000+08:00

sinagpore

2009-08-07T09:53:00.003+08:00

新加坡生日快乐！今年比较特别，没有在新加坡庆祝。会在泰国与同事、朋友一起玩乐。我一定要记得在8.22pm阅读信约。好喜欢看每年步操，仪仗队等等的节目。好整齐，好好看。不能多说，要做工了。

happy birthday singapore. this year kind of special, will not be celebrating with singapore. be overseas at phuket with friends and colleagues. i must remember the 8.22 pm pledge. haha. always love the marching. so tidy and nice. cant type much, need work liao.

post

2009-08-03T08:35:00.002+08:00

星期五做了一件一直没做的事。没想到我尽然真的做了。现在就等结果。不知会如何。我的左手好痛，又肿有黑青。咳。都是针害的。害我不能躺左边睡觉。终于这个星期来了。好期待。虽然不能观看国庆庆典，但是，我还是很高兴，因为庆典会重播。旅行只有那么一次。我要玩的开心和疯狂。哈哈。

friday night did something which i always didnt have the time or could i say mood to do. was surprise that i really did it. now is just waiting for result. not sure what will the result be. my left arm been hurting, swollen and blue black, due to the injection. make me cant sleep on my left side. finally, this week have come. the week i been counting down to. although i cant watch my ndp parade on the marching, i still very happy as i am able to travel with my colleagues and friends. i must enjoy and relax myself, refresh, hoping by the time i come back, the result will be out and i am able to make a decision.

pool

2009-08-01T19:51:00.003+08:00

今天去打预防针，打了，便去机场。去买给fiona姐姐的巧克力。本想买一个，但看到另一个黑色巧克力。决定买两个。哈哈。fiona姐姐有福咯。然后去找adrian和猪爸。去吃午餐时，ck来了。我们就去打桌球。打了不知多久，就换场，去打保龄球。第一局，猪爸赢我们，我最后。第二局，我尽然赢了猪爸。哈哈。不错。然后我们就去吃。就各回各的。真不错，久久去玩，好轻松。

today went to take flu injection. don't like taking injection. after that, went to changi airport to buy chocolate for fiona jie jie. haha. actually want to buy the tiramisu chocolate, but found another chocolate, dark chocolate, fiona jie jie favourite. so decided to buy two. after that, went to tampines century square to meet adrian and zhu pa. went to have lunch, and ck came over to join us. after that went to safra to play pool. haha. had a fun time. after that, went to play bowling. first round, zhu pa won us all, me being the last. 2nd round, i won zhu pa. haha. he beening the last. after that, went to have dinner. after that, all went each way. long time no had such a fun time liao. once receive my personal cue, will play more often liao.

jobs

2009-07-31T19:44:00.004+08:00

一直在网上翻查，总觉得我不知道我在哪里。不在这里，也不在那里。怎么办？我该往哪里走？学历不高，不上不下。谁能帮我？帮我找到一条我能走的路？

been online searching and surfing, but couldnt find anything. found myself nowhere here or there. cant go for that, cant go for this. where am i suppose to go? my qualification is not high, only have diploma. stuck at nowhere. how?

自己

2009-07-30T12:36:00.002+08:00

有时会想，我到底是什么人。我了解我自己吗？我是为谁而活？真的好恨自己。活了22年，我到底做了什么？我得到了什么？我吸取了什么？我失去了什么？我的梦想是什么？我的未来在哪里？我是否应该存在？有时感觉融不进身边的人。。。杀了我吧。。。

工作

2009-07-30T09:14:00.001+08:00

freedom

2009-07-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

snooker

2009-07-27T09:13:00.004+08:00

昨天看完了一部戏，是猪爸借的。关于桌球。好好看。让我又掀起了我的兴趣。好久没玩了。这个星期我要去玩了，有谁要陪我呢？哈哈。

after two days finally watch finish the show which zhu pa lend me. about snooker, slight pool. it very nice, make me know better how to play, the position, the standing, the accuracy etc. very long no play already. must go play this week. anyone wan accompany me? now abit hard find people accompany wor. haha

steamboat

2009-07-26T19:49:00.004+08:00

today was suppose to meet kristen they all was steamboat, but cause afternoon had a bad diarrhea, so was not feeling well. after that, elaine call, and i want go meet them, elaine and chua didnt reply my message, so call kristen, but she no matter how i ask, she don't want let me go, i understand, cause they eating steamboat, spicy, i might not be able take it. no choice, can only meet them next time. sorry gals, didnt mean to. i really want meet out, as it is really hard for us to meet together and gather. i promise i won't put aeroplane liao. even if i don't eat, i also must go meet u all. no matter what, must let me go ok gal.

需求

2009-07-24T09:20:00.000+08:00

云顶

2009-07-24T09:12:00.003+08:00

前几天正在想九月能不能和表姐们和阿姨们去云顶。突然脑海里闪过几个画面，就是我和fiona坐杯子转圈圈。哈哈。真好玩。转到好晕，但是真的很好玩。从来没玩转圈圈到这么疯狂。哈哈。好想在去玩。希望真的九月能去。尽情的玩乐。

few days ago was thinking if able to go genting on september with my cousin and aunt. suddenly, pictures flashed through my mind. about me and fiona playing the cup turning. we turned until very fun and crazy. haha. so nice and fun. though slight giddy, but it really very very fun. never had so much fun on a cup turning before. haha, must have the right company. hoping september i can go genting. play till crazy and relax and refreshed myself.

message

2009-07-23T16:57:00.000+08:00

有事要找weipeng，但是找不到，所以发简讯给fiona，顺便问问她们是否在享受。哪知道，fiona说她租了车，wahh,我突然之间能感受她们多开心的玩乐。害我不能专心工作了。哈哈。我忍，忍到phuket,要疯狂的玩！！！

have somthing to find weipeng about, but couldnt get her, so message to fiona, and also at the same time ask whether they are enjoying. who knows she told me she rent a car, can imagine how much fun they are having, driving around. wahhh. i 忍, till phuket then must play crazily liao. haha.

阴影

2009-07-23T09:38:00.004+08:00

house warming

2009-07-20T08:27:00.003+08:00

星期六好迟才起来，因为星期五和朋友聊天到很迟，一点多。哈哈。第一次聊到那么长，那么精神。聊了很多。哈哈。聊到星期六一点才起来。呵呵。妈咪有点怪，难道因为我睡到午餐时间才起来？哈哈。不管了。下午休息一下，就跑去阿妈家吃螃蟹，只吃4只脚。哈哈。好难拔。有两只是源源吃，因为他看着我吃，也好想吃，就拔给他吃。哈哈。看他吃的模样，你也会觉得很好吃，想跟着吃。真可爱。

接着在阿妈家吃，陪她一起，和我的表姐们。然后本想一起去causepoint走走，但是突然有人要打麻将，我们就玩玩。玩到十点多，有点累，ah kim 就载我到巴士站，因为下雨，然后有点累，就搭280回家。看了点戏，就睡觉。星期天还早了一点起来，哈哈。接着看我的戏，突然妈咪说要和阿妈去四马路，我没办法，只好待在家里看住弟弟。整天在看戏。看了好多喔。看到乱。哈哈。至少我没有想那么多，想了些开心的事。大姐姐说的。呵呵。好像跟螃蟹有仇，一直在吃螃蟹。哈哈。

saturday woke up very late, due to friday night was chatting with fiona and chua. talk about alot of things. haha, very long never had such a long chat already. in the end woke up nearly 1pm on saturday. just in time for lunch, mummy abit weird. never mind, den afternoon go over my grandma house. they ask me go eat crab, in the end, i ate 4 pincer. haha. two pincer was for yuanyuan, he was sitting nearby looking at me eat. oh man, how can i not give him any. haha. see the way he eat, it make even the inedible food delicious. haha. really.

after that had my dinner at my grandma house together with my cousin to accompany my grandma eat. after that, mention want go causeway point walk walk, then someone suggest mahjiong. so started playing, but no money involve. after that, around 10 plus, ah kim tired liao, so she sent me to mrt and my cousin home. then being the tired and lazy me, took 280 home. oh no, must control liao. then watch abit harry potter and went to sleep. woke up slight early on sunday. watched my show on laptop, and got told by my mother that she want to go bugis with my grandma, so no choice had to stay home to take care of my brother despite very much want to go to siangyee house.

sorry about it siangyee. so continued watched my show. watched so many movies until i blur. at least i didnt think so much, haha. thought of some happy stuff, fiona jie jie say de. nowadays like have hatred for crabs, been eating it so much. haha.

黄丝带

2009-07-17T08:28:00.006+08:00

昨天带着电脑，和weipeng 去tampines starbucks 找大姐姐，注册黄丝带的马拉松。一到那里，weipeng 和大姐姐就忙着旅行的东西，安排住的。我就在那自娱娱乐，玩起电动。有点闷，就跑出去买插头。weipeng 打了好多通电话，但我没接，因为电话不在我身上。遇到一个久同事，聊了几句。回头道starbuck 去，我们就换位。我没办法上网，就看我的戏。接着，看僵尸片，weipeng比我还认真，一直很专注的看，看到一半，我就开始弄黄丝带的东西。帮siewlit 和 ck 一起弄。弄完，僵尸片已经完了。哈哈。我们就护送大姐姐到mrt等siangyee。过后我们就回家了。咳。一天过得好快。

ps: weipeng 正在服侍老板娘。哈哈。她的钱包好暴喔，该换了。

yesterday went to meet fiona at tampines starbuck with weipeng, wanted to register the yellow ribbon. when there, they both started busy for the travel booking, so i just entertain myself and started playing my psp. was kind of bored after that, so went to buy plug, on the way saw one of my old colleague and started chatting awhile. weipeng called me many times on the phone but didnt pick up as phone wasnt with me. after went back to starbuck, shift place but couldnt go online, as fiona using my account. so no choice, watch my show. CSI and vampire show. weipeng very ento in the show, halfway, i switch place and started registering for the yellow ribbon. helped siewlit and ck too. by the time i finish, the show also finish liao. after that escort fiona to mrt to wait for siangyee. and we went back home by taxi. how fast a day past.

ps: weipeng serving "boss" fiona. haha. the wallet too explode liao. need change one liao.

depression

2009-07-15T12:23:00.004+08:00

忧郁症：这些是否是几个月前经历过的，但是没注意到。我不知不觉的想，我是否真的有轻微忧郁症。有几样我是有出现过的。我不知道，我很乱。我时不时都会很伤，不知不觉中会有点想哭。我为什么会变成这样？为什么？我到底是怎么了？有时很想闹自闭。有时却很想出去散散心。昨天也不能好好的玩羽毛球。突然间整个人很沉重，很压力，很伤感。但是这些从哪来？头好痛。我不再是我，找不到我自己。更可怕的是，最后一点我曾经有过。但是回想到家人，那念头没了。我是否真的病了？

SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS OF DEPRESSION IN TEENS
- Sadness or hopelessness
- Irritability, anger, or hostility
- Tearfulness or frequent crying
- Withdrawal from friends and family
- Loss of interest in activities
- Changes in eating and sleeping habits
- Restlessness and agitation
- Feelings of worthlessness and guilt
- Lack of enthusiasm and motivation
- Fatigue or lack of energy
- Difficulty concentrating
- Thoughts of death or suicide

depression: some of the symptoms have encountered months ago, but didnt take into much notice. cant help thinking, am i really having slight depression? i don't know, i very confused. at times, will feel very sad and have the intense to drop tears and breaking down. what have happen to me? why? why am i like this? sometimes just feel like being alone, out of the world, the crowds. sometimes will feel like going out have a walk, going to the beach (my fav place). cant even play my badminton well yesterday. all of a sudden, feeling very heavy, very tense and stress, thought there wasnt any stress from playing badminton, but do not know where that came from. i no longer me, i cant find the old me. frightening, the last point i even had it. but thinking of my family, that went off very fast. am i really sick? is it time to find a doctor?

感情

2009-07-14T17:07:00.003+08:00

为什么脑海里有点迷惑，有点空虚。但却出现一些画面。那是我心里要的吗？有点不了解我的心了。仿佛心里想的和嘴里说的不一样。不是每一件是都是这样。我仿佛觉得心里是否已经。。。我不确定。我尝试不去想，但是偏偏出现在我眼前。真想拨开我的心来看。确定我一直不敢确定的事。想找个人谈谈好难。尤其是谈心事。我也不知如何开口。

若说出来，害怕不知他人会如何看我。真的好想往我心里看看，到底是怎么回事。难道已经发。。。难道已经心。。。对这件事，我仿佛不会处理。经过一次，是怕，是胆小，是麻木，我不知道。昨天和老妈子谈了一点。知道她的看法。但是我凭什么？我是谁？只能默默的收在心里。心事谁人知。我不敢踏出第一步。如果不是我想的呢？如果只是我一个人的想法呢？我该如何收拾结果？我该如何面对？谁又了解我的心？为什么？为什么？为什么让我遇到？为什么！！！！

TTSH

2009-07-14T13:04:00.004+08:00

昨天陪mummy 去看医生。她需要做报告。仿佛有事，希望没事。一切没问题。从早上等到下午才做好。就去novena 吃点心。吃完了，逛逛一下。那一下，就让我花了两百多块要到三百。哈哈。好可怕。不出去，就很省，一出去买东西，就花很多。还好是久久一次。过后去了people's park，只是绕了一圈，就去marina因为那里有addidas,我可以买鞋。去到下午三点多，吃了些冰淇淋，好冷。哈哈。我们俩冷到发抖。就走到suntec要搭巴士回家，但是有点来不及，所以搭280回家。好累的一天。但是mummy开心就好。一个月后要回去拿报告。希望一切没事。

ps: 我终于拿到"HAP" - Higher Authority Passport。我可以去玩了，只要有钱，我就能出国。Yeah!!!

yesterday accompany mummy to TTSH for checkup. hope she be fine. waited from morning to afternoon, after that went to have some dim sum. after that walk around into a shop, but once in that shop, i am broke. it cause me 200 plus to 300 to go in that shop. haha. after that went to chinatown. walk one round, and went to marina to buy addidas shoes. haha, finally use my voucher. after that, walk around, and went to have ice cream. ate till 3 plus, and walk to suntec to take bus home. but kind of late and rush, so took 280 home. next month need go back take report. hope mummy be fine. and i want save more money.

ps: i finally got my "HAP" - Higher Authority Passport. i can go overseas with friends liao, as long as i save and use my own money, mummy is ok with it. Yeah!!!

chocolate buffet

2009-07-12T12:01:00.009+08:00

星期五，我们一组人去吃巧克力“不肥”。八点才开始。吃了几块，好吃，但有些有点甜。还算不错，但是吃久了会很腻。整个感觉不错。很舒服。只是不久后，siang yee 和 lisin 说要吃炒果条，炒米粉。。。哈哈。吃了不久，我们就回家，但是我没回。

送他们到mrt，我就慢慢找路到kristen 他们吃的地方。好远喔。到了，他们还在吃。但是我一直在喝水，也吃不下。因为胃有点不舒服。接着，我们去接ah gal。然后游车河。哈哈。不知要去哪。在车上小睡，胃也好一点了。我们开到East Coast 吃麦当劳。没吃什么，只是喝牛奶，但是kristen不让我喝，哈哈。因为胃的关系。过后，wen mung 先送我回家，因为我还要去ah ma家，因为ah gong 昨天做祭，ah ma 一定要我去她家睡，不放心我一个人。

所以先回家冲凉，收一些东西。再等wen mung 回来接我，哈哈。等着的时候，我睡着了。等我的电话响时，wen mung 已经在我家外面。哈哈。吓死我。快点起来，出去了。ah gal 坐在后面。wen mung 先送他回家。接着才是我。好累。wen mung 竟然还很精神。哈哈。到了ah ma 家，差点不能进。三点才到家。哈哈。

弄好ah gong 的东西，我们就出发去抓螃蟹。哈哈。还算不错，我们有约定晚上在去。晚上比较多收获。哈哈。过后，自己搭280回家。本想去找kristen他们，但是，咳，算了。他们应该很enjoy。哈哈。

had our chocolate buffet on friday. only can start at 8pm, so walk outside awhile. took photos. had a few pieces, kind of sweet for some. still not bad, but eat too much, abit sick. haha. the whole environment very nice, very relaxing. but when siang yee and lisin mention want eat hawker food, haha, abit spoilt the mood. no la. joking. not long, we went our own way, as lisin need go home early, then i also meeting elaine,kristen and wen mung, who is nearby at clarke quay.

send the others to MRT, and walk and find my way back to clarke quay and walk to river side view. kind of scare to walk alone there, so walk very fast. took me quite some time to find my way there. when i reach, they were having their dinner. ask me to help eat, but gastric not feeling well, maybe due to too much chocolate or walk too fast after the buffet. haha. after that, went for car ride. went to fetch ah gal at suntec. took us some time to figure out how to get there. haha. when we there, we tried to find our way out. but in the end, we keep driving back to suntec. haha. we seem so happy to be back at suntec. wahaha.

after that, had a small nap on the car, but was still awake. went to east coast have mac. after that, wen mung send me home first, as still need go to ah ma house. after that, pack my stuff and bath and msg him once done. and rest on my bed. kind of fall asleep, until suddenly my phone ring, wen mung is here and is outside my flat. diao. got my stuff and left. he sent ah gal home to bukit timah first then last is me as i going sembawang, and he lives in woodlands. reach ah ma house nearly 3am. wow. he still very awake. almost couldnt get in ah ma house.

once ah gong stuff finish, we went for crabing. caught some crabs, not very big. so we decided to go back at night. had more crabs at night. wanted to meet kristen and elaine for dinner, but they enjoying themselves. so after crabing, took 280 go home.

fiona's farewell

2009-07-10T08:15:00.005+08:00

昨天是大姐姐最后一天与我们一起工作。好伤感。至少我控制自己不哭，不流泪。整个心情很沉，但是为大姐姐开心。舍不得，但是她正在前往另一个开始，追求自己的梦想。昨天去机场吃日本寿司。一大组人去。今晚将会有另一场。我们的巧克力“不肥”。希望会是个难忘的一晚。要开工了。好累喔。昨天好迟才睡。哈哈。

yesterday was fiona da jie jie last day in ghim li. sadness fills the place. at least i control myself not to cry. yeah. and i did it. feel so "heavy" yesterday, but still feel glad for her. stepping into another path of her life, end of this journey, the beginning of another. the door opens for her. pursuing her dreams. yesterday went changi airport and eat sakae sushi. a big group of us. tonight there is another dinner. our chocolate buffet. hope tonight be a memorable one for all of us. so tired, sleep very late last night. hehe..

new workstation

2009-07-08T14:56:00.001+08:00

my new workspace.... haiz...

nice dream

2009-07-08T08:23:00.005+08:00

昨天、不，是今天。哈哈。今天早上，做了个美梦。梦到我在一个小岛，蓝天碧海白云，多美啊，多轻松。看着那蓝蓝的海，白白的云，听着那海声，多美妙，多好听。好轻松，整个人放松了下来，没烦恼，没忧愁，没思考，就懒洋洋的躺着，坐着，欣赏那一切。

真不想起来。所谓日有所思，夜有所梦。可能是昨天去吃火锅的关系。我们帮siewlit 庆祝。今天是她最后一天。真为她开心。昨天去bugis 吃火锅。吃着吃着，看到sophia。哈哈。好久没见。聊了几句，又开始吃。有好多想写的东西，但是突然间，忘了。

今天开始搬东西。好累。好多东西喔。整个早上都在搬。搬到刚刚好午餐时间。叫了外卖。好累。好想睡。回到梦里。好想放个长假。无忧无虑。自由自在。咳。。。

yesterday night, no, no, today morning. that right. today morning had a beautiful and wonderful dream. dreamt that i was at a small island. the clear blue sky, the blue sea, the white clouds, so beautiful the sight.

so relax. looking at the sight, listening to the wave, so nice. so calming. totally let down my hair. no troubles, no thinking, no pain, no sadness. just lying on the beach, enjoying the whole view. really don't wish to wake up to the reality.

the cruel, untrue, painful reality. yesterday had a farewell celebration for siewlit. it her last day today. so happy for her. hoping she be successful in whatever she do in the future. went to bugis had the steamboat. met sophia there. so many things wish to post, but have forgotten.

was shifting and moving all my stuff to my new seat at level 3. so tired. been moving the whole morning. move till lunch time. too tired to go out plus is raining. so order macdonald. so tired, wish to sleep and get back to my dream. freedom, relaxation surrounding me...

另一半

2009-07-07T11:12:00.009+08:00

那是日出还是日落，看你怎么看。。。

从前有个故事，上帝创造我们的时候，是一男一女，但这两个人，偏偏在一开始，就分散了。缘分将会将这两个人拉近，遇上彼此，慢慢的，又在一起。

人的另一半，就是这么的。缘分，时机，地点，将会是如何撮合人们。是你的，就是你的。不是你的，不管你如何想，如何争取，如何抢，如何怎样，不是你的，始终不是你的，还是会从你手中离开。

有人会骂我傻，有人会赞成。各有各的看法。有些人会觉得幸福就应该自己争取，有些人就会顺其自然。我可能就是其二。不是不想争取，可能害怕受伤，或者不会争取。我也不知如何。

曾经收过一个朋友的简讯，是这样的：为什么上帝在我们的手指间留有缝隙？等那一天，你命中注定的那一个，握住你的手，紧紧的把缝隙永远的覆盖。有点难翻译华语，意识差不多。哈哈。

真的好乱。不知是否我的世界已关闭起来保护自己。没感觉，好麻。但思想不停地想，不停地转。谁能融化那麻木的心。谁又会是我命中注定的另一半？随缘吧。

is that a sunrise or sunset? depends on how you look at it.....

there was this story, about god created us, it separated into a male and a female. and this two individual were placed at different parts of the world. there is a connection between the two.

and strangly, this connection will draw the two individual to meet up together, causing fate and destiny between them two. and there they are, back together again. that how our the other half comes from. the time, the environment, fate and destiny is the crucial stuff.

what is yours, it is yours. what is not yours, not matter how you fight, how you think, how you try your best, it is never yours and will still slip right through your fingers no matter how tight you hold on to it.

some people might scold me crazy, some people may agree with my thinking. everyone have their own thinking. some feel happiness have to fight for it, some feel just let nature take its course. i maybe the second part? it not i don't wish to fight, i wish to, but am i scare of the pain, or i do not know how to fight for my happiness? i do not know myself.

once a friend msg me this:

ever wonder why god created gaps between our fingers? so that 1 day the one who is made for you, comes & fills those gaps by holding your hands 4eva. isnt that amazing and interesting and meaningful?

very confused. do not know if my world have close it doors to protect myself. no feeling. feeling numb. mind keep thinking and revolving. who will be the one to melt that icy cold heart? who will be the one in my life to fills those gaps? let nature takes its course...

prawning

2009-07-05T10:39:00.002+08:00

昨天去吊虾，好好玩喔。在女儿家楼下约，我到时，wen mung, chua 已经到了。就直接上他的车。我们就直接去bishan吊虾。

吊三个小时。一放鱼竿下去，很快就有一只很肥的虾上钩。哈哈。真好。我的第一只虾。好大好肥。yeah。

kristen和chua一直没吊到，我就换一下。不久就有虾上钩。哈哈。有几次好好笑。好夸张。还是别说了。吊到七点，就完了。

我们就拿那些虾去烤。总共23只。但是没调味料，没盘。没办法，只好叫4只鸡翅膀。然后把虾摆旁边。哈哈。开动。

吃完了，wen meng 借我他的车驾。哈哈。好好喔。从bishan 去potong pasir 接 elaine。过后就去changi airport。我们就去买popeye 吃。

打包到changi beach吃。找个地方坐下来吃。聊了很久。聊到中学时代，好怀念。只是看到wen meng 有点闷。哈哈。

因为他不知道我们的事。说到好开心。但时候不早，我们就回家去。chua 第一个到家，接着kristen，然后到elaine, 最后就是我。有点尴尬，

因为在机场发生某些事。害我不知如何解释。kristen 和 elaine, 你们别在玩我了。

yesterday went prawning. it was my first time prawning. met kristen at her house downstair. by the time i reach, chua was already there, both in wen meng's car. so i just wen up and off we went.

when we reach bishan, wen mung was the one doing all the hard work. haha. when i put the first bait down, very fast i got my first victim. haha. it was a very big and fat prawn mama. i guess.

but kristen and chua didnt get any, so help them abit. in between happen lots of funny stuff. haha. better don't say. after that, we prawn till 7pm. went to bbq the prawns, 23 in total. yeah.

but due to no plates no seasoning, we order bbq chicken wings. the small dinner was nice. after that, wen meng let me drive his car. we went to fetch elaine and off we went to changi airport.

we went to buy popeye, but cos no space, so we take away to changi beach and enjoy our 2nd dinner.

had a long chat there. talk about our old school, the teacher, the class, the painting we did. such a memorable place and relaxing place to relax and chat about old stuff. talk till quite late. and off we went home.

first was chua, next kristen, then elaine. last was me. as always. it was quite weird as something happen at the changi airport.

the whole environment seem abit tense, whole journey didnt really talk. only reaching home, guide abit.

kristen and elaine, i understand your well-being, but just let nature take its course will ya? thanks. i really appreciate, i also know some stuff. but, just see. haha.

combine post

2009-07-04T10:10:00.004+08:00

因一个人的要求，我将会有两种语言的博客。

我的好“女儿”啊，你要学习如何读华语啊。哈哈。

今天将会和“女儿”和wen mung 出去。将会去吊虾。不知过后会是谁吊。哈哈。我是不可能动那诱饵。好恶心。如果会动的话。呵呵。

过后会和elaine会和，去吃晚餐。不知去哪吃。但是我知道一样事，我好想驾车。哈哈。希望今天会玩的开心。好久没星期六出去了。

这几天工作压力好大，不够人手，同事也要走了。她伤心，我们也伤心。她不舍的，我们也不舍得。只希望她离开后，会开心多了，就像siang yee一样。

你要常写博客，让我们能知道下一次旅行要去哪。哈哈。祝你快乐。星期四就是你的最后一天了，希望那天你不会哭。开开心心的。星期五还要去吃巧克力“不肥”。呵呵。希望那天你会很开心。

just because of someone, i will have to write both english and chinese. And proper english somemore. haha. gerl ar gerl, must improve your chinese reading hor.

today will be meeting her and wen meng for prawning. haha. i not going to touch the live bait if there is any. so creepy and disgusting. haha.

after that will be meeting elaine for dinner together. do not know where we will be eating and what will we be eating. but i know something, i wan drive car car. hope today will have a fun time, as very long never go out on saturday.

this few days very stress due to work. not enough manpower, plus colleague leaving one by one. feeling very sad. she sad, we are sad too. she cant bear to leave, we cant bear to let her leave too. however, just hope she be happier then before.

just like siangyee. that day saw her, she seem relax and happier. good for her. hope fiona will feel that too. you must often update blog, to let us know the next travel plan. haha.

thursday will be your last day. hope you can leave happily, though it is hard. however, we be meeting on friday for chocolate buffet. hope that dinner will be a memorable and unforgettable for you. you must be happy, fiona! often smile like this.

transformers

2009-07-03T08:22:00.003+08:00

昨天去看了电影，好久没看电影了。和大班同事去看transformer:revenge of the fallen。。。开始对这部戏没什么好感，一直觉得为什么这么多人喜欢看。直到昨天。。。我深深的被吸引住。我也是第一次上网订票订整排位置。八个位在中间。临时有多添了一个人，没办法，坐后面吧。我们、fiona, weipeng, lisin, jeff, ck, shenghwa, siewlit 八个人坐一排。derek 坐后面。有几次，我是真的融入了戏里。好紧张。我想我也会疯狂tranformer 吧。好想买他的戏回家收藏。这部戏也看也很久。从六点半加广告到九点多。好久喔。但是很值得。谢谢fiona,要不是她们要去看，我也不可能会去看。还是忘不了这部戏。画面一直在脑海里重复。结局也很可爱。哈哈。姿势是一样的。只是觉得那女孩很可怜。哈哈。就算要我再看一次，我也不介意。哈哈。整个声效，动作，画面都很精彩。很值得看。

遇人不淑

2009-07-02T16:38:00.002+08:00

心情好差，只因为那件事。该怎么说呢？昨天和fiona、weipeng去tampines吃吃逛逛。本想去大巴窑做礼物的，但是没关系。明天去也行。买了一副拼图，真好看。好想快点做好。然后又去买护肤品。看到了siangyee。看得出她似乎很开心，比以前开心多了。真为她开心。聊了几句。过后分头回家。

今天不怎么开心。因为fiona跟我说了一件事。看得出她好难过，但是我们又能如何？事情发生到这种地步，不可能指望“他”了。没人情、大男人、自以为是、过度自信。真没话说。替她不值。她不该得到这种待遇。真的不知以后这里会不会天翻地覆。公司也没人情味。真不知能留到多久。不离开，因为舍不得。但是不离开，又做不下去。人真是善变。离开了，又有点愧疚，想帮也不是，不帮也不是。咳。。。人不为己天诛地灭。这句话很真，但是往往人会考虑很多。对别人仁慈，就是对自己残忍。话是没错，但是又有谁不对别人仁慈？不知是性格问题还是环境变了人。。。

羽毛球天

2009-07-01T08:50:00.002+08:00

昨天也去打羽毛球了，那是我们和佩丽（fiona）最后一次打羽毛球了。本想来个友谊赛，但是时间关系，而且我有在训练、只打两场。复习了前球，后球，开球等技巧。学了很多，很不错。只是前球和后球很累。哈哈。很快就没体力了。该去练气了。打完了球，便去找吃的。很奇怪，我和weipeng凑巧看到想吃的东西。而且又是同样的东西。真是心灵相通。哈哈。或是凑巧。看到一位小姐正在吃福建炒虾面，也看到一位男士吃炒果条。哈哈。吃着吃着，便和他们一起做巴士。游车河到sengkang 又搭280回家。很累但是很充实。。。

梦

2009-06-30T08:16:00.002+08:00

做了一场梦，梦到回到中学时代，穿着再也熟悉不过的校服。那感觉真好。见到许多朋友。在那的当儿，全校正在考口试。看到熟悉的环境，熟悉的人物，有种无法解释的心情。看着圣约翰，我好开心。算是我最美好的记忆。有许多我拼不出的拼音，所以只能长话短说，哈哈。我也要开始工作了，免得被别人说。

犯罪心理

2009-06-29T14:08:00.002+08:00

昨天刚追完犯罪心理第4部，是一部不错的戏剧。第1到3都没看过，哈哈。故事是如何以犯罪人的心态，去猜测为何他们要这么做，下一步又会往哪里下手，如何以最短的时间破坏及逮捕他们。有一点心理学的关系。真不简单。我也不知不觉慢慢喜欢看以犯罪、警察、护士、所有关系制服的戏。哈哈。突然觉得以华文来写博客好难，因为所有华语拼音都忘了。只能再接再厉。

我也换了博客的背景，那是很有意义的背景。那只熊代表友情，每个人都应该知道。对我来说，却不只代表友情那么简单。如何成为朋友，是一种缘分。有时会遇到损友，有时会遇到知己，如何分辨。对我来说，朋友就是朋友。朋友要有一定的信任，才能成为永久的朋友。我也很相信朋友的话，从不怀疑，因此，有时会被耍，但是我不介意，因为能让朋友开心，我就很满足。但是也别常常耍我。哈哈，不多说了，要做工了。

badminton

2009-06-26T08:40:00.003+08:00

past few weeks have been playing badminton with my colleagues... it a good exercise.... especially me... cos i learn alot of new pattern... plus more jokes came out from me... wahaha.... enjoy the fun and time together..... but tis wun be long.... fiona be leaving us soon.... siewlit also.... badminton suddenly short of 2 person.... although still can meet up.... but still feel sad... cos they are live in malaysia... and i still one who need to get a "passport" to travel... haha...

july is a busy week.... lots of outing and eating... haha.... having farewell for siewlit first... den fiona... and going for chocolate buffet (finalli) .... haha... wait very long liao... haha... wait to treat people... hmmm... even treating people have to wait so long... haha... cos they busy ma.... hehe...

ever since i came in ghimli.... been seeing lots of coming and going.... haix.... well... can only wish the best for them.... been so crazy lately.... duno y.... even weipeng say so.... den die... facebook all thought i lesbian liao... wahhh.... 跳进黄河也洗不清。。。。haha.... but that the fun... yeah....

gathering

2009-06-15T13:12:00.002+08:00

sat wen out early to meet my cousin at ah ma house to go out in the afternoon.... we borrow car from uncle... den all started nagging at us... 好玩hor... diao... we were drowning... with all the talking and nagging..... faster eat abit... and faster run liao... cos going to rain.. .if rain... we sure kanna ban from driving by my ah ma... haha... diao... den wen to pick up another cousin... make us wait downstair so long.... den we wen to bishan nearby... den since so near ah yi house... so call her... she say she outside... but on the way home... den ask where are we.... den she started laughing... cos her car was behind our car about three cars away... so after i turn from the traffic junction... i stop awhile at the bus stop to let them overtake us... haha... so cute... den think they lose sight of us cos of a stupid lorry blocking... den they slow down... they wen left... i also wen left... haha... den sat and surf abit web...

after that... wan go yio chu kang nikon mura eat... den happen their car beside our car... so we chatted... we wen slightly long way... haha.... den after eating... drove to causeway point... let my cousin took over since she just pass her driving and is a straight road... haha... den after that stop at a bus stop and change... cos go in multi storey carpark... wahhh... my cousin still ask me go basement one... the carpark is like so so damn narrow... but able to conquer it... worse was driving out... i have no choice but to use my left leg step brake... haha... cos very very steep... plus the car very near... unlike when my cousin driving... all car very far... (cos put triangle plate)... haha... den control abit.... den off we went home... haha... not enough fun... when the next outing?

busy...

2009-06-12T07:30:00.002+08:00

was kind of busy after my ah gong pass away... it seem like a dream... but it not... haix.... tis sat have a family gathering.... with all my uncle and aunt.... hope there more of this... it seem like only those gathering that all gather together... haix...

人聚人散.... i hate that.... i dun want!!!!!!

moodless

2009-05-30T14:06:00.002+08:00

for the past few days... didnt have the mood to updae blog... and even before that, as was busy... but past few days really too tired and no mood to blog... due to ah gong pass away on sunday night.... all was there.... except two 外孙.... dun wish to say who... even ah gong fav 孙.... rush home from army camp... just before ah gong pass away hours later.... haix... dun wish to blog liao.... totally no mood liao....

badminton

2009-05-14T11:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday wen to play badminton after work with fiona, lisin and ck at bedok sport hall.... haha... it was tired but fun.... cos lots of laughter... due to some things that happen... haha... so long never work out liao.... just play a few minutes.... already sweating like hell.... they all say i very gan chiong... ball haven come... i already run... haha... like that den ggot work out ma.... plus everytime i hit the ball... i will shout abit... in the end... they keep laughing at me... i duno y wor... i need shout a bit den got energy hit... haha.... den got a "prize" from lisin.... she hit the ball at my eye bone there.... same place where i got hit when had badminton competition that time... and the feather brush against my chin... ended up with a scar now.....

it was very red.... den next was fiona who hit the ball straight at my chest... wahh.... first game only wor.... must becareful the two of them liao.... haha.... but it was fun.... in the end... duno why got one part when i hit the ball... it ended up hitting ck back... he was kind of standing in front of me... haha... sorry ck.... thought it was kind of short.... about 1 1/2 hr.... it was a good workout.... took a cab home.... lobang lisin on the way.... reach home... bath and prepare... was still kind of awake.... haha... good for me.... even now... although tired... but must more awake den normal.... yeah.... must workout more to keep awake... and also to 练气... haha.... i was the only one who sweat the most... run the most.... make the most noise... haha.... i wan play more.... and more exercise like cycling... skating... swimming.... good for my health too... yeah....

have some aches around... but still fun... both fiona and lisin play long liao.... become very 狡猾.... like ck.... haha.... more more more....

lost in singapore

2009-05-12T12:24:00.001+08:00

i cant believe... yest wen to toa payoh to settle sumthing... but got lost there after finish my stuff... walking in circle... diao... after duno how long den i manage to find the way i wan go... oh no... am i a singaporean?

黑白或彩色

2009-05-12T08:27:00.002+08:00

我的世界是黑白的或彩色的? 何为黑白? 何为彩色? 若是黑白，如何填上彩色? 若是彩色，如何保持彩色，不踏入黑白? 请高人指示！~

Counting days

2009-05-08T08:27:00.003+08:00

yesterday morning got scare and woke up by a very loud and strange thunder... funny was my sis seem to sleep peacefully.... was i dreaming or wat.... after that... tried to go back to sleep... but was panting..... and finally got to sleep.... had a very bad and scary dream.... "dead" people came alive... like really dead, and those status type... walking in a very weird way.... at my house downstair... i still look at them from my kitchen window... really my current house kitchen window.... wat does that mean.... a premonition? a dream? i duno....

after that went for my exam.... a bad one..... exam delay to 10.30am den start... due to scanning of temperature... plus the way they set the arrangement is bad.... and i left at 1.15pm.... to rush back to work... grab a bag of fries and took cab down.... slightly late.... and have my brunch in office.... was planning to have bak ku teh with fiona,lisin,shenghwa,derek... so after work... we went happily... and i have another objective... to buy present.... however... halfway on the train... took out my phone... my sis call... saying mami looking for me... i call back... but couldnt get thr.... i tried again... until my mum suddenly answer and say call me back.... den i have a bad feeling...

i waited.... she called and asked where am i.... can i go home.... i have no choice... so had to tell fiona and lisin i need to go home... cant join them... but feel bad as i was the one suggest to eat the bak ku teh.... den wanted to take cab home... so alighted at lavender with them... den mami called again... i told her i at bugis when i was at lavender.... cos i see the exit very much like bugis... den when went out... i notice why no door to bugis one... den i turn around... fiona and lisin was wondering y i say i was at bugis.... haha... cos my main objective is go bugis buy present... forgot about the bak ku teh.... den in the end... unable to withdraw money... den fiona have to lend me sum money.... funny was she asked... how much u wan to lend... lisin at side was kind of laughing.... she wan 100m u also give? haha... so cute...

den took a cab home... only to find my brother alone... at the kitchen eating dinner... lucky nowaday he very good... after went for the training center and the church activities... he become more and more better den last time... that a good one for us.... i didnt have much appeitite.... waited till 9pm... wanted to go sleep... feeling very tired.... finally mami came home.... told me about everything... and suddenly say will find one day go eat bak ku teh with me.... hee... thanks.... den i couldnt take it... sleep at 9 plus... had a very deep sleep.....

射雕英雄传

2009-05-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

oh... my show going to finish liao... T_T.... den sat and sun i will be lost... cos now... i be looking forward to sat and sun 7.30pm to reach early... haha.... at least there is sumthin for me to chase... but now.. haha... see got wat nice show lor... but hope they will continue the second part.... they look so compatible inside... hehe... how jing ge ge is abit blur blur type.... while rong er is the wisdom type... haha... so cute lor.... yesterday watch till cry sum more.... haha.... although bought the dvd liao... but bear with it... watch on tv first.... haha....

the book i lent is different story.... a earlier version i watch on dvd before.... but this one is nicer... hehe.... yeah.... haix.... exam cuming... i wan go out.... so sianz.... faster may over.... looking forward to my phuket trip in august... during national day sum more... haha... wow.... save money first... save more....

"月老"

2009-04-23T08:45:00.002+08:00

haha... yest very cute... met up with kristen... she help me got a free treat... a belated birthday treat from wen mung... haha... this gerl aka daughter of mine.... how can i say... abit like 我肚子里的蛔虫... haha... sumore trying to be 月老.... haha... this little 鬼灵精怪 daughter of mine... haha... see lor... see u will success anot... doesnt have a bad impression on him... that a good start for a friend... haha.... yest wen to take there... actually was at hougang mrt station... waiting for her... den board the train... while waiting... ck was chit chatting with me... once met kris on the train... she start toking about him... kind of forget... den on the way... cant deny her "abilities"... haha.... ya ya... i admit i envy.... it true ma.... hehe.... i also envy others... wahaha.... den waited outside kino for wen mung..... at first doesnt have any impression on him... cos very very long never see him... plus only met him twice.... but when he reach... could rmb it was him...

den we went crystal jade eat..... haha.... tok alot of stuff there.... den we chit chat... eat until 9 plus..... we walked off and wen to have dessert at cini jap restuarant.... forgot the name... have yuzi ice cream... oh my god... very sour... den kris mention.... if i have a car... my birthday present will be she decorating the interior of my car... haha... plus my car need to be blue... yeah.... my fav car in honda jazz.... and in silver blue.... haha... that my dream car... which i everyday will see while waiting for company transport.... i wan a car.... though now car is cheap... but no money raise it... haha.... kristen.... mayb u might succeed... haha.... kidding.... it takes time.... let nature takes its course.... more gathering and free treat i dun mind... haha.... yes... thanks wen mung for the belated birthday treat and the lift home....

*ps: faster buy a car... i be ur driver... haha...

Life.....

2009-04-22T13:09:00.002+08:00

人生自古谁无死; haiz.... last sunday wen over to ah ma's house... all the uncles, aunties, cousin were there.... a gathering... i can say.... ah gong is even skinnier.... i think he is like only 20-30 kgs? or less.... they even got the photo ready... i duno wat to say.... life.... 生老病死.... it a cycle... 老会死，不老也会死，病会死，不病也会死... haiz.... sometime i really wish i was 古代人... haha... those in the show like 射雕英雄传、神雕侠侣 etc.... they seem so peaceful in there.... 要爱就爱，要恨就恨, isnt so much conflict around.... haha.... i daydreaming.... how i wish can turn back time... go back to school life.... but school life has a sad event happen.... or even earlier... to when i was a baby.... 无忧无虑.... haha.... haiz.... now kind of scare i be like her.... often having those thoughts... i hope it wun happen... but some symptom it happen to me.... i must stay happy... regardless wat happen... if i could....

信任

2009-04-17T08:32:00.002+08:00

你根本就不信任我，你可曾听我的心声，真真正正的听。我一直以为，最了解我的人是你，最了解我的性格是你，但我错了，你根本就不了解我。是，我爱闹，爱玩，但我也有认真的一面，你知道吗？我并不需要在我认真的时候，跟你说一句：我现在是认真的。别人怎么不相信我，不信任我，不知道我，怎么说我，我不管，但你怎么也一样。我最需要的是你的相信，信任，还有你肯聆听的耳朵，但是却没有。别人怎么说，你说你不信，但是你还是信了。我无话可说。有时真想什么都不管，结束这一切算了。

funeral

2009-04-11T12:02:00.005+08:00

last thursday have a bad dream... dreamt of my father's funeral... was it a premonition... i hope not... but it seem that it just happened yesterday.... the whole scenario came back.... from when i was in secondary school.... i remember that day how it goes....

that day was the last day of school.... for our last Chinese 'O' level paper in a few more days.... that day everyone was in their class... our form teacher, Ms Ong, was giving out our report books and stuff by index number... as i was no.18, so it wouldn't be so fast.... so i decided to take a short nap.... suddenly our class phone rang.... i woke up abit... as ms ong was talking kind of long on the phone... i went back to slp with my friends around me chit chatting.... den suddenly ms ong call me out.... i was tinking so fast reach me liao meh.... while i was walking up... i notice sumthing at my desk.... my friends suddenly started packing my stuff into my bag for me... i was kinda shocked and surprise and confuse.... until ms ong told me sumthing bad happen....

my mind was in blank.... she walked me out of the class.... at that time... it was quite sum time before school end... when i walked past the other classroom.... people were looking thinking why i so early go off.... when i was at the admin counter.... ms ong ask if have enough $.... lucky mami always ask me keep extra $ on hand... i walked out.... i tried to hail a cab... but couldnt get any cab at all.... i walked and panic.... i notice school ended.... everyone was out... but i still at the roadside trying to hail a cab... at that time... i was really lost..... suddenly my phone rang...

it was mami... she told me sumthing.... 爸爸走了... at that time... i was in a blank state of mind.... i still suddenly asked mami... 什么走了.... she reply... 死了.... i... i... i just breakdown and cried at the roadside.... i couldnt help it.... i was crying till out of breath... i walked and walked.... kept trying to hail a cab.... finali there was one... i was still crying... and think the taxi driver was shocked... i just asked him faster send me home... when i reach home... the main gate was open... my uncle (my father's brother) family was there..... when i wen in... my mum ask me go see my father... he was lying on the bed.... stiff.... still.... i was scared.... i dun dare go close to my dad.....

it all happened very fast.... the next thing i knew.... i was wearing the funeral clothes.... sum people came to dress my father up.... me and my sis went throught sum procedure.... going down by stairs calling my father.... kneeling at the carpark roadside... calling for my father... when my father was placed in the coffin.... everyone was devasated.... the next thing i know was.... a few day later was my Chinese 'O' level paper.... didnt have the mood to study... all my friends advice me to study... but i really dun have the mood....

i still rmb weixien came to help me at the funeral.... she help me serve and fold the funeral paper... my aunties still told me she a good friend.... sumone who dun mind this kind of stuff... sum will avoid doing this kind of things at funeral... but she was ok and willing to help.... at that time... i was very grateful to her.... still rmb early that morning of my Chinese paper... i woke up early.... pour a cup of coffee for my father.... praing to him to help me for my last Chinese paper... when in school... really didnt have the mood to study... but as all my friends kept advising me... i just tried to read abit....

after that.... wen straight home to help out.... the day finali came.... it was the last day.... my mum was crying with my grandma.... they were devasated.... but they couldnt go send my father.... me and my sis was placing our hand on the van and walked a long distance... my cousin was at the side beside me.... holding us.... when my father was place on the board.... when he was roll into the flames... me and my sis couldnt stop crying... i still cried till out of breath and weak.... nearly fainted.. and had to have my cousin hold me....

when reached home.... my mum was still crying... we washed up.... that night we all slpt together in a room... the next day we went to pick up my father's ashes.... each of us place a bone inside the urn before the person place all inside the urn.... for the next few days.... we all slpt in our room.... i still rmb one night.... i suddenly felt my bed at one side felt heavy... as if sumthing was 'sitting' on it.... i dun dare open my eyes.... in the morning... i told my mum.... she say that position was looking at my sis.... highly possible is... cos my father like my sis alot....

that was a great change to us.... sumtime my brother will suddenly call for my father.... haix.... it was a long period for us.... sumtime when think about the whole scenario.... i couldnt help feeling sad and dropping tears... it felt just like yesterday.... after that only left my sis, me, my brother and my mum 相依为命.... i told myself.... my only kin left my sis and my mum... i must let my mum have a good life when i grow up.... fiona told me: dream is the opposite of reality.... i really hope it is....

birthday 10-04-09

2009-04-11T10:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my birthday... didnt celebrate.... first was due to kind of sick.... second was at my grandma's house... got to know from my mum on wednesday that ah gong isn't feeling well.... kind of worried.... so we went to see him yesterday... was really shocked.... since new year that time till now.... he really sick and changed alot... he slim down alot... everyone know that sick sure will slim down... but he only left skin and bones.... i dun dare to keep looking at him... he seem worse den before... i really scared.... heard from my mum that around two weeks later... is his birthday.... wonder if they will celebrate for him.... there are many things which i thinking... but i dun dare say.... wat i really wish is for him to recover.... i tink that my only birthday wish this year.... haix.... really duno wat to say.....

2009-04-08T08:49:00.002+08:00

Which Three Kingdom personality are you?

Zhao Yun
You are a reliable team worker. You serve a noble and outstanding cause. You are flawless - you possess a great physique, courage, keen intelligence and charisma. Throughout your life, you have braved insurmountable odds that many would not. Great job!

wahahaha.... my favourite... yeah.... I am Zhao Yun!!!

2009-04-07T14:10:00.003+08:00

歌曲：《我只能爱你》演唱：彭青

当你握紧我的手

我决定和你走

经历再多的挫折

也绝对不退缩

当河流都倒流

我还在你左右

一直陪伴你到时间的尽头

就算有一天天和地都会分离

也永远不离也不弃

要和你在一起

呜~~~~~~~~~~~~

为了你我可以

因为爱你我只能爱你

生命荡涤轮回里

你是唯一不忘的记忆

真正的爱过

才算真正的活过

爱你从此绝不会放手

不曾褪色的承诺

比永久还要久

痛过哭过也恨过

从未想放弃过

莫问我要理由

爱就是我所有

今生来世你是不变的守候

就算全世界

都要来与你为敌

也还要紧紧抱着你

泪不会掉一滴

呜~~~~~~~~~~~~

为了你我可以

因为爱你我只能爱你

只要为你我愿意

牺牲一切都不觉可惜

真正的爱过

才算真正的活过

爱你从此再无他所求

siewlit birthday

2009-04-06T12:39:00.005+08:00

let see.. haven been updating my blog recently... last week wen to celebrate another colleague's birthday on 31/feb as her birthday is on 1st april.... hmm... funni was.... when reach marina square... we were confuse where got level 3 as the pasta de waraku is at level 3... so ck wen to walk ard looking for it... other standing ard... me and weipeng standing near mac using wireless to surf the web finding the address again... finali found it... funni was no reservation made... hmm... den i notice i call the wrong number... haha... but still manage to have seating for 8 pax.... phew...

den we sat and ate.... fiona very courageous... she order the pasta is very black wan... like black ink... forgotten wat the name of the dish... den everyone look at her while she eat... haha... her teeth, her tongue all black.... we all laughed... but each had to take a bite of her noodle.... 同甘共苦... haha... den soon... we had the birthday cake there.... after that wen home... haha... there was a funi part... siangyee suddenly toking about the 煮妇的假期... say cannot watch... den wen leaving... we all keep teasing her faster go back.... mayb still can catch the last few minutes... or we go nearby coffee shop... haha.... den in the end... when i reach home... i was able to catch the last 2 minutes of the show... haha... diao....

fiona birthday

2009-03-25T20:23:00.005+08:00

yesterday we went to celebrate fiona birthday... something happen in the noon... she receive a bouquet a red roses.... den she thought it was me... diao... i didnt... i innocent... den he dun believe... @_@.... haha.... den yest 3 plus... i order a present to her... actually wan to send to her b4 6pm... but the courier person miss the present... so didnt send.... den we wen to boat quay.... mind cafe!!! first time wen there...

quite small there... was kinda confuse with the menu... haha... den we took some games to play... haha... got one the staff explain very long... but we still couldnt understand... so after he wen off... we faster pack it... haha... den we play scrabble... was abit blur with it.... den we left some words... all funny words start to come out... haha... another funi game was jenga.... haha... when shenghwa, adrian and siewlit first play.... so cute... they take the stick out.... never put on top... continue... with each one colour... haha... a new playing of the game.... den when we play... very very noisy... haha... duno how to say... but have uploaded the photos on facebook... the mood and feeling is hard to describe out again... haha...

after that we went to manchester united cafe to have a drink... haha... the environment is nice... good place to relax... can go again... haha... it fun able to sit and drink and relax... but the next day work.. sianz... everyone thought i wun go office today somemore... haha... diao... i not that weak until like that la....

*more photos at facebook* hehe...

tcc

2009-03-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

last week had a small outing at boat quay... actually wanted to go to manchester united cafe... but it was fully booked.. so we walk and walk... finally all 5 of us (fiona, ck, poh hoon, weipeng and me) decided to go tcc... we wen to the level 2... there are no chairs... we sit on the floor with bean bag... as usual... fiona (our photographer) take out her camera... shortly... ck pointed to something infront of him... we all look.. it was a sign of "no photography"... haha... automatically... fiona keep her camera.. the other 3 of us very fast took out our handphone... and started taking photos secretly... we order some many nice dishes... including one wasabi milkshake... the first wasabi milkshake doesnt have much taste of wasabi... think the staff heard us... she check with us if anything is wrong... fiona told her the wasabi not strong... wan add more... we thought they will just put wasabi in and stir... but we saw they pouring the whole cup away...

wow... kind of wasted... but that the good service it should have... den after our dinner.... we sat and chit chat... relaxing... den bright light catch my eyes... flashlight flashing... den was thinking.. thought no photgraphy... but nvm... since other people taking picture... fiona took out the camera to take photos... den we check with the staff about the sign.. she was controlling her laughter.. haha... the sign is meant for the design in the shop... haha... we were laughing until so much... nearly roll onto the floor... haha... we are so embarrassed... haha... that was so fun... so we have “偷偷摸摸照片” and “光明正大照片”.... hahaha...

genting trip

2009-02-23T08:14:00.019+08:00

yeah... back from genting... wow... it was a long... tired yet fun trip.... total there was 12 people... boss jeff, fiona, pek khim, derek, 小孩哥哥, wicky, adrian, weipeng, poh hoon, yik ching, ck and me of cos.... wen back home on friday... bath and rush everything... left at 7.45pm to reach amk mrt station taxi stand to meet pek khim to take cab and meet fiona...

Genting Day 1:

reach woodland checkpoint about 8.30pm-8.45pm.... first time experience how they always rush home on friday... haha... den waited for the bus... me and fiona went in the another bus lane... while pek khim and ck was at another one... den on the bus... fiona describe and show me the different parts of malaysia... what this... what that... haha... den finali over the custom... reach the city square...

walk around to look for place to have dinner... in the end... wen to mac.... wow... the chili sure is hotter den our singapore mac... haha... den while eating... called up the others... shenghwa, wicky and ck reach shortly... den derek.... next was weipeng, poh hoon and yik ching... and we walk to merlin tower... adrian and jeff was there already... yeah... finali can board the bus... sat with fiona.... try to slp on the bus... but was unable to.... from the set off to yongping... i couldnt slp... but the other slpt so soundly.... den finali... able to slp... got awaken up... haha... wow... the bus sure was cold... nono... not cold... should be freezing... lucky mami ask me bring extra scarf... haha... majority of the gerls were "freezing and shaking"... haha...

Genting Day 2:

finali at about 4 plus 5... we reach First World Hotel... yeah.... everyone was in a slpy mood... once reach... the gerls wen to the toilet... me, fiona, pek khim wen to brush up ourselves... haha.. den we leave our bags at the luggage place... and took a number for the hotel room... and off we went to have our first breakfast... haha... we had roti prata and nasi lemak... wow.. the milo caused 5RM... due to it was hot and the cup was sticky... i use the small plastic spoon to slowly drink... got tease by jeff whether cause the milo to expensive... so i drink so slowly... haha... diao...

den after that... we went in casino walk walk see see... the other started playing... den we walk outside and took photos... den wen to theme park play... there is jeff, fiona, me, poh hoon, weipeng, pek khim and adrian... we play alot... and boss jeff bought alot of our ugly picture taken from the ride... wahh... haha... we play till lunch time... met up the other who went to casino... den have lunch.... after that... all wen back to the hotel and wait for the number... something very cute happen... cos we waiting for our number 4006 to come out... den while toking... when the number change with a "ding" sound... all turn around... den the cycle go lyk this... "ding" turn head... "ding" turn head... haha... den when our number appear... some of us scream... haha... den in the end... all turn and look at us... haha.. too excited liao...

kind of like this photos... cos when boss jeff took for us.. the wind was blowing... we were all freezing there... and he took very slowly... diao... haha...

den we all went back to the room... weipeng, poh hoon, yik ching and her bf in a room, beside is wicky and ck one room, next to them is derek and shenghwa one room... me, fiona and pek khim room was the end, beside is jeff and adrian room... den we bath.. rest till 6pm... i gave everyone a wake up call... haha... all were slping soundly except those wen to casino.... den we gather and have our dinner.... muilan and his husband came before dinner.... and met up with lisin to have the dinner too... as they arrive in the late afternoon... we all were there... except jeff and adrian who wen to casino....

after that... some wen to room.. some wen to casino... i follow fiona... due to no handphone on me... as i pass my phone to her... due to her phone low batt... den we walk around the casino... den weipeng call... since i was kind of bored and couldnt stand the smoke in the casino... i call weipeng and tell them i meet them... but they wun be able to contact me... so i inform fiona and walk off... suddenly stop.. took out 100RM... wanted to pass to fiona to ask her help me try luck play... so i walk back... but couldnt find her... wow... she fast.... den walk ard a few minutes... no choice... den had to go due to the others waiting for me... so i quickly walk out... and spotted lisin... den lisin help me call fiona... in the end... she just looking... no playing... haha... den ok... i ran out of the casino.... halfway... i saw them... they wanted to pick me up... haha...

den we wen to play indoor games.... was playing the indoor roller coaster... haha... den wen to sit the indoor whale.... it wen indoor one round... just before reaching the point.... spotted fiona downstair... diao... from the way they look up... they thought i was scared... haha... dotz dotz dotz... den there was adrian, jeff, shenghwa, fiona, me, weipeng and poh hoon... we thus wen outside and walk walk... enjoy the cold wind... den we decided to go starbuck and have some cold drinks... haha... and lisin brother wen off alone...

isnt this picture nice... like this photo alot... haha... oh no... F.... am i falling in love with u... keke...

we sat and chit chat... like that feeling.... so relax... den the other decided to go casino... but before that... we went to our room first.... in the room... i call the other... due to we were bored... ask shenghwa bring the cards over... den called the others to come to our room too.... wow... it was fun at the time... all gather in a room... chit chatting... playing cards.... playing psp... watching tv... haha... poh hoon lie on a bed playing psp.... fiona, adrian, weipeng and muilan's husband playing cards.... sat beside shenghwa toking about dynasty warrior again... haha... cos some parts due unclear... den took out my psp ask him show me while i massage for fiona... haha...

den around 12.30 or 1.30am... forgotten the time... we set off to casino... leaving poh hoon and pek khim in the room.... me, fiona, shenghwa and ck walk around... derek started playing... we walk and walk... it was packed everywhere... den in the end... decided to go back and slpt... at that time... jeff msg saying that he and adrian going to get some food.. but didnt receive cos wasnt using my sim card... haha... den we slpt....

middle of the night... got awaken... by some noise... look around... all was slping soundly... thought it was handphone vibrating... in the end was not... slp again... got awaken... slp again... got awaken... den i notice it was pek khim... she 磨牙.... it was that sound... diao... in the end... couldnt slp well... den 8am receive a call... fiona pick up.. it was ck... haha... den all wanted to slp... so i brush up... prepare and wen to find shenghwa, ck, derek and wicky... they going for breakfast... den mit up with weipeng, poh hoon, adrian and jeff to have buffet breakfast...

after that... we straight went to play superman... haha... wahh... it was very cool sia.... the seating was like this... from left to right... adrian, ck, shenghwa, derek.... next was jeff, me, weipeng and poh hoon... when the guys left... they scream.. haha... and we scream too.. haha... fiona and pek khim was downstair looking at us... haha... after that... we parted... as fiona and pek khim wan shopping... den we walk around to see what can we play... den in the end... we went to sit the monorail... bought a candy floss and plain water... while traveling... suddenly a guy appear outside the monorail... at my side... got a shock and the gerls and me wahhh.... haha...

den wen i was drinking water... the gerls wahhh again.. i got choke and nearly vomited.... but couldnt... was controlling and trying to drink the remaining water first and try to cough the water that wen the wrong pipe out... but the more i cough... the more i feel like vomitting... den boss jeff took a photo of that... funny is everytime i drink water too fast... my eyes will drop tears... in the end... everyone thought i cry... den boss jeff still tease me... faster wipe... if not the second batch thought the monorail very scary... haha... we all laughed... den after that we wen back to the room... packed the remaining stuff... wen to adrian and jeff room... to play cards...

the others still wan try their luck at the casino.. so me, poh hoon, weipeng, derek and shenghwa gather in one of the room and play cards... playing halfway... fiona and pek khim left with mui lan... we played till 1 plus... den checked out... wen to have our lunch and prepare to set off to take our bus.... our bus at 3pm... it take us 7 hours to reach singapore... in between there is 3 stops... when reach the first stop... the other ask me... dun wan go down find your 三叔公? ... haha... so wen down... couldnt find.. the second stop also couldnt find... the third stop... we had a fast dinner... the gerls help me find... couldnt find 三叔公 but found 阿叔公... haha... den i got mix up by the names...

and we continue our journey... reach lavender around 10 plus 11... took a cab home... bath and pack... tada... back to work the next day... haha... sadded was didnt took a big group photos... haiz...

overall... it was tiring but very fun... especially with such a big group.... hope there is more to come... all pictures will be upload on facebook.. hehe...

genting shopping

2009-02-19T08:22:00.002+08:00

yest went out with 小孩哥哥, lisin, siewlit, derek and fiona to bugis.... the guys wanted to buy jacket for genting...... on the way... we kept toking about dong zhuo.... haha.... hate dong zhuo.... where is lu bu.... to kill him.... the whole journey was toking about dong zhuo... haha.... den reach bugis... wen to eat first at food junction.... halfway eating... both me and lisin receive a call... haha... den of cos we answer the call.. den we keep toking... forget to eat.... mine was cos of the theft in Cheers... the store manager call me to verify some stuff.... funny was the auntie wasnt there yesterday... haha... nvm...
den we went shopping... in the end... is not the guys shopping for jacket... is the gerls... haha... saw a very nice converse shirt-cum-jacket in white... very nice... but too ex... no choice... den was at a disney store... saw a very very cute stitch tag.... wanted to buy it... but $24... and the other side i thought is blank... but it encraved winnie the pooh there... den i think think again... walk away liao... the person like very sianz... cos i stand there and examine very long... haha... den in the end... no buy... wen to find fiona... she bought a watch.... $5++.... wahh.... very fast wor... me $24 still must consider so long.... haha.... diao.... haha...

fiona.. 佩服佩服!!! hehe...

suspect theft

2009-02-17T08:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday... i notice a woman in her forties, behaving suspiciously at the Cheers located at Ang Mo Kio Mrt Station facing the main road.... when i saw her walk out of the store... i tried to chase... but couldnt see her anywhere... which aroused me more....

den yesterday night went to paya lebar to have dinner with lisin, fiona and 小孩哥哥... to have mee hoon kuay.... have a very long chat there... haha.... chatting about... haha... secret.... reach home about going 9pm.... bath and started to make my laptop... but couldnt make it... so have a chat with mami again.... den slp at 10pm...

today morning saw the auntie again.... now i can be very 100% sure that she has been stealing magazines from the Cheers... going to make a report today after work.... i hate myself.... couldnt catch her red-handed.... and i cant just let it be... i saw it.... if i just keep quiet... 良心过已不去.... so be going to make a report after work...

valentine day

2009-02-15T10:40:00.002+08:00

yest was valentine day... haha... didnt do anything... except wen to ds house play mahjong.... haha... actually was suppose to be from 3.30pm.... but in the end whay chuin cannot come.. qz come at 4 plus.... so only started to play at 5pm.... play.... played till the last round.... terence.... faster come up and let him play for me.... haha... wow.... once terence sit down... he help me win alot.... in the end... i was suppose to lose alot.... but he help me lose little....

den after that qizhi need go meet friend first den come back.... den i in the end... lost again.... lyk go there give money de.... whay chuin.... make me become scapegoat.... den play till 12 to 1 plus.... went off... sent linchong to bishan there... and qz wan eat... so wen to my house nearby mac and eat.... tok till 2 plus... den went off... thanks for the ride again qizhi.... haha.... ur meal will come after my genting trip.... but no chio bu... haha...

Red Cliff II

2009-02-10T08:31:00.002+08:00

Last friday 小孩哥哥 brought me go see Red Cliff II.... wow.... haha... his friends were surprise got gerls will lyk to watch this kind of show... haha... i special... haha... no la... i lyk the characters play inside.... especially guan yu... he loyal.... and 重义气.... that wat i lyk... plus many other characters too.... no much time to say... but i can say i really enjoy this show very much....

thanks 小孩哥哥 for the dinner and movie treat... hehe... thanks so much... we watch till 12 plus... den he and his friends took mrt home... while i took cab... haha... cos too late... but still very happy.... yeah...

new year visiting

2009-01-30T07:47:00.004+08:00

CNY day 1:

went to my grandma house early in the morning ard 10plus... had stephen drove us there.... once reach.... my three darling arrive shortly.... oh man.... love them sia... haha... they so cute... wear uniform wor.... haha.... u see the picture u know why it is call uniform... den as time passes.... more relatives arrive.... while waiting.... had lunch... play tai di.... won some money... haha... but stop shortly... due to some adult request take a family photos.... since all family all there.... yar.... first time all so early.... and wat a big group...

hope have more change to take this kind of photos.... got quite alot of ang pow.... den due to very sianz... play some mahjong.... won some game but no money... cos not playing money.... den stay there till 6 plus.. had our dinner there.... and most of the other relative all go other place visiting... den we wen home.... stephen drove us back again.... and went out with sis... rush back home in time to watch little nonya... oh... so nice... yeah... den slept ard 11-12am... forgotten.... den the next day woke up early....

help mami with some food preparations due to in the evening relatives coming over to have dinner.... den wen out at 10am.... to go to chua hs at 11am.... wow.... reach her house exactly at 11am.... yeah.... den transfer some games over to my psp... shortly... wen over to eileen, kristen, mich lim and last my house.... had to play hide and seek at kristen house.... all cos of her momo.... a pervert dog... haha...
den shortly after they left... one relative came.... and on and on.... busy serving... playing tai di.... busy till 8pm... all prepare to go home.... due to next day work or school.... den next day receive msg from wc if wan have dinner at night..... thought should be ok... den morning wen out with mami... wen to watch show and walk ard.... reach home ard 3-4 plus... was feeling very tired and abit sick.... so in the end... didnt go.... den got say by qz.... no choice... is i put plane de.... den 8plus... heard they still at ds hs.... playing mahjong... thought of taking cab down... but got stop by mami... cos she thought i be taking bus... 1 hr to go... sit awhile 1 hr back again.... haiz... no choice... cant tell her i intend to take cab...

the next day... woke up early too... prepare to go work... wen to office at 1.30-3.30pm.... 开工.... and really... i was indeed working... other celebrating... walking around..... haha.... at least not that much due to hand some to chow to help... after that... me, ph and chow wen over to find adrian and 拜年.... stay till abt 5pm... den wen to white sand... wanted to watch chibi... but it was at downtown east... so wen back to tamp again... century sq had started the movie at 5.30pm... and it was already 5.50pm... so wen over to tamp... it too late... the show is at 9pm... den forget it... wen to long john... had some finger food... and took a cab home... and here i am... starting work again... so tired and sleepy...

CNY

2009-01-25T12:14:00.002+08:00

hapi CNY to all.... today is new year eve... hereby wishing all a CNY... Happi Chinese New Year... mayb not much post today... haha... a long weekend holiday... hope everyone have a fun long day during CNY... hee...

nice post

2009-01-24T12:00:00.001+08:00

-When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

-When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

-When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

-When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ...she is not at all fine.

-When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

-When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

-When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

-When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.

-When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

-Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person...

-Find a Guy, -Who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

-Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

-Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

-Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

-Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

-Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

-Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

-Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

saw a very nice post from weixien.... read it... found it quite true for some... or should i say all.... haha... weixien... keep it up... hehe... so i can grab more from you... *hide myself*

ps: anyone who is interested in who is WEIXIEN... she my first penpal, first friend in secondary school, first adviser.... a very nice, sweet, fun gerl.... interested... to look up the link at my blog under the first name "weixien"... and bingo... that her.... hehe...

long work day

2009-01-23T12:23:00.002+08:00

this few weeks a long day for me... so tired.... really going to become a pig liao.... been skipping class.. due to too many work need to clear b4 CNY.... haiz... today overslept... woke up very late... but i must really 佩服 myself... normally walk out to take bus need 10-15 min... today fast walk until 5-6 min... haha... good job leg... but tired... haha...

today got cash pay, ang pow and 1 carton of oranges.... wahh.... haha... must careful liao... so much cash.... so tired... today lucky early release... at 5pm can go home.. nonono.. can go school.. no need take cab... yeah... den tml and sun slp.... haha... like no new year mood... sianz...

just now accidentally send back an email saying buyer fault... which is really her fault.... but reply me why this kind mail must reply to all.... wahhh.... ok lor.... now angry with me.... den me only one small fault u also cc to all boss.... let u have that kind of feeling la.... now angry... just now call... and reprimand on something else.... 故意find something to scold... idoit.... CNY coming... dun bother with u...

just now got my pay... ang pow from company... and oranges.... wow.... first time see so much cash.... yeah....

wishing everyone a happi chinese new year... 发大财！！！

science center and snow city

2009-01-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

ok... let see... was on leave on mon and tues... went out to training center with my mum and brother.... place him there and left and went to my grandma house.... ask them out for lunch... had lunch with my ah gong, ah ma, my cousin and maid.... den shop and eat.... den forget liao... haha... cos was tired too... den next day also go out... go where ar... forget liao... haha...

let say today... actually suppose to meet 11am at jurong... but cos just wen out at 10am.... ph and derek called and said they going for breakfast.... thinking they wun be early and on time... decide to take bus instead... if not very early reach... was studying on the bus... sit until backside pain... haha... den they called and said they reach liao... by the time i reach... was about 11.45am... den weipeng not reach yet.... so walk ard and waited... about going 1pm den we reach science center....

first stop: mac... haha... weipeng hungry... next wen to buy tickets for science center and snow city... we went snow city first... due to 3 plus having maintenance... abit rush.... so reach there... wen to play.... wahh... so cold sia.... face... numb... haha.... too cold... den play until so many bruises.... den everytime slide down... halfway will lay back and keep knocking my elbow against the ice floor or my back against the ice floor.... so pain.... wahh.... but it fun... haha...

den next went to get photos and went to science center.... wen to buy omni-theatre to watch the ocean... yik ching and weipeng watch till slp... haha... only left me, ph and derek enjoying... den next wen back science center to finish walking the center... den we saw the performance about lighting... they place three balloons.... and use lighting.... and poof... it went boom in flame ball.... wow.... interesting.... by the time we almost finish.... it almost six.... we also sat the morphis ride... haha.... 5 min only... but it move here and there... graphic not very good....

overall... fun... but pain too... going to organise a outing to sentosa... and to the underwater world too... hehe... but $$$.... haha

新的一年

2009-01-01T09:54:00.001+08:00

新的一年
新的希望

新的生命

新的开始

新的目标

新的愿望

霉运全跑

好运跟着来
祝所有人财运，好运，健康，陪伴一整年，新年快乐！！

happi new year all.... wishing all a very happi new year.... may wealth, health, prosperity follow all year round....

a brand new year.... older one more year liao... got new plan too... new decision.... just wish all the bad luck gone... good luck follow all year round....

thought over it

2008-12-29T13:17:00.002+08:00

finally... finally saw some good news on sotong's blog... she thought it over... she wun give up so easily... was so scare that she might take her own life.... but lucky... haix.... life is unpredictable... who knows the closest to you could even harm you... hurt you.... push you down... who can we trust in this world... who can i trust in this world? me, myself and I... i am a friend of myself... and also an enemy of myself... the more people see down on me... the more i should prove myself... not for others... but for myself...

trust... such a profound word to me...

xmas celebration

2008-12-25T12:29:00.004+08:00

yest was consider a different xmas celebration for me.... lucky company got half day... we all went home... change and pick the car up.... abt 2 plus den got the car... wen to the petrol station.... couldnt get the key out.... die.... den struggle very long.... finally able to and start the car properly.... den i fly drive to company... pick fiona and alicia up... to give them a lift to woodlands.... den went over find poh hoon at tamp mall and went to fetch derek.... den off we go to woodlands.... a very very long journey sia....

den after alighting them off at woodlands... we consider lost our way... haha.... so anyhow drive.... den wanted go jalan kayu eat roti... as fiona suggested... but couldnt find.... den go on the highway... den think go airport eat.... den by pass tpe... haha... saw the jalan kayu sign.... diao... den wen went past ikea.... ask wan go eat... but miss the exit... so wen out... but couldnt find the way to ikea... den happen shenghwa they all going expo eat... so go there meet them....

den reach expo... abit early.... so went to one of the hall and walk ard.... cos they selling some electronic stuff.... den went expo foodcourt eat... den wen with shenghwa, siewlit and leesze to the city harvest xmas celebration..... quite a memorable and different celebration.... drama toking about the birth of jesus.... den there was this candle lit thingy.... where everyone hold a candle... sing in the dark.... it was so beautiful... always saw it in picture or stuff.... but didnt expect i could experience it myself.... thanks leesze and shenghwa for asking me along... sure is a different experience for me....

den after that.... sent siewlit to bedok and we went off... drove to duno chai chee where... wen into one of the HDB carpark... and from there... decide where to go.... den suddenly ask if they wan go icecube eat dessert.... so we went there... but close down or what... couldnt find it... haha.... den wen chomp chomp eat.... eat the chicken wing, stingray and pohpiah.... den wen to send shenghwa home first... cos if send poh hoon and derek... den send shenghwa... i duno how to go home... haha

den we reach bouna vista.... we u-turn alot... haha... cos 小孩哥哥 couldnt find his house... haha.... diao.... y so many ppl will lose their way when in a car finding the way home... even siewlit couldnt recognise her house where.... diao.... den finally reach 小孩哥哥 house... wen to the nearby coffee shop for toilet.... den 小孩哥哥 owe me a big big treat... i want abalone.... sharkfin... etc... hehe....

den off we went to tamp again.... den drop derek off... i kind of lose my way... duno u-turn how many times.... wen i saw the road i wan go... i drove in the wrong lane liao... wen to airport... oh man.... no1 there sumore.... den drove all the way to the carpark... diao.... got very scare.... how to go home.... nearly drop tears.... den faster call for help..... after some turning.... got on the highway.... still scare.... until i saw the ikea and the road home... i felt slightly better... den i really speed home.... drove to the central carpark.... park the car there.... den faster walk out and took a taxi home.... den msg the other....

den need faster find a time go help chow buy chocolate... haha... duno dare to drive again at night alone not... hmmm...

ps: gan ge... 没良心

present shopping

2008-12-22T08:20:00.002+08:00

let me think **** last week wen to bugis thrice.... thursday... where i went with lao er, lao si and lao wu.... oh... that was a painful shopping... haha.... walk till about 9 plus.... den we went off.... bought 3 tie at bugis... haha... finalli bought it.... den wen to take bus... have to stand the whole journey.... oh my god.... my leg were pain till numb... nearly cant align the bus.... walk in a very slow manner.... nearly wan to take out my heels and walk... no choice... tahan abit to house.... once take out..... wahhh... hurt more... haha... cant walk.... sat on the sofa and rest first.... kept pouring hot water on legs... den bath le faster slp... lucky next day is friday... can wear sport shoes....

still hurt.... but better.... den friday no much stuff.... saturday woke up.... prepare stuff... get ready stuff for my brother to go church... den meet mami outside at BUGIS again.... wen to walk and buy stuff.... forgotten what we bought... haha.... den 2 plus reach home to fetch bro.... den started packing and tidying my drawers... throwing useless stuff.... den finally can online liao....

den sunday.... wen out to meet qizhi at BUGIS again... haha... to get present.... den walk.... eat.... got mostly my stuff there... den went to vivo to buy chocolate... for sumone who i owe.... den he drove there.... got my stuff... he send me home... den pack and online awhile again.... haha... this month very very very broke.... **sob** must eat bread for weeks liao.... haha..

好眼泪坏眼泪

2008-12-15T20:01:00.003+08:00

in regards to yest post.... hmm... found the lyrics very very meaningful... good tears.... bad tears.... who have drop goods and bad tears.... well... many do... it only is more goods tears or more bad tears... hmm... let me think... do i have more goods tears or bad tears.... **thinking** if bad = sad.... den mayb have more bad tears.... too many things happen since young.... too many....

saw sotong blog... her depression is gettting worse... now she even think of death.... where death is the only choice... haix... duno how to help her.... she need to help herself... but she isolating herself.... keeping everything to herself.... it hard to help her.... she need some listening ear.... concern.... but how to concern when she isolate herself from the world.... hmm... wonder will see her on 23rd anot? well... let see ba...

好眼泪坏眼泪

2008-12-14T13:17:00.005+08:00

《好眼泪坏眼泪》徐若瑄

我曾认真试爱着一个人

他给我幸福的可能

我等我问未来何时发生

他只是给我一个吻

快乐我哭是因为你的手

曾答应带我向前走

难过我哭是因为我的手

找不到你说的以后

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流

感动和悲伤都是理由

只不过在你不再爱我了以后

像坏的眼泪慢慢流

快乐我哭是因为我付出

得到你温柔的答覆

难过我哭是因为我认输

你的心永远留不住

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流

感动和悲伤都是理由只希望

在我不再想你了之后

有好的眼泪慢慢流

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流

感动和悲伤都是理由

只希望在我不再想你了之后

有好的眼泪慢慢流

有好的笑容陪着我

yest sheng hwa sent me a video for this song... once listen... eyes became watery... haha... love te song alot.... so wen to download the song... and put in my psp.... it so nice....

yest went out to trim my hair... hmm.... abit short le.... though still can tie... haha... but at least still slightly after shoulder length... hehe.... and went to grandma house take grandpa report... for didi training center... arggg... abit not use to my hair..... haha.... faster grow long.... but if dun cut short... it no different from before.... hehe.... so hair hair must grow fast....

frustration

2008-12-12T07:21:00.003+08:00

*hoooo*... *blow dust*.... wow... how long since i last updated my blog... many things happen.... hmm..... after the chalet.... was so so so busy with work.... i also forgotten what happend in between... haha.... been watching young warriors of the yang clan... oh man.... it so nice... i wish i am still able to get the vcd or dvd... haha....

planning a day food trip.... travelling around to find and eat good food.... but who to ask.... hmm.... haha... this year xmas seem bored.... meeting kristen they all on 23rd.... duno what to buy sia.... mayb buy all bracelet... haha... different design....

y must always mention him to me.... if not stopping... dun blame me for my harshness... i mention one more time... i have nothing to do with him.... he is damn fake... so stop mentioning him to me....

yest had a msg from fiona... about 诚信... haha.. asking for xmas... what will get for her... den i choose chocolate... in the end... she reply say.... since i reply i will get chocolate for her... i cannot break that.... dotz... haha... got a feeling got tricked... but still happy.... dun worry fiona... i sure get nice chocolate for u! hehe...

chalet 29-11-2008

2008-12-01T20:04:00.003+08:00

wow... had a tired day... but was very fun.... me and adrian organise chalet on saturday... to sunday.... had a lot of fun... yeah.... somemore i drove... haha... that thte fun part... wen to take the car at 11.30am... had qizhi to acc me again... cos i dare not drive out the carpark... after that.. wen to top up petrol... and i take over and drive.... drove to sengkang.... as qz need to get something from friend... after that... guide me to bedok... pick up adrian... den together go to tampines.... and parted with qz there... tanks qz....

den by the time reach tampines mall... already going 2.30pm... haha... den poh hoon they all keep calling... thought i missing.... haiz.... den bought lot of stuff.... wen straight to chalet.... prepare slightly.... den wen off to tampines with poh hoon, derek and adrian... to get seafood and pick up jocelyn.... after that wen back to start the fire..... den many wasnt coming... i panicked.... it like so much food... but so less ppl come... i try to call... msg... see who can come... den chow give me a surprise... i was very sad at first... cos suddenly cut short msg ending with a bye... which means cant msg anymore... den jeff never pick up phone... until i know in the late evening rachel, john and kevin coming... i relaxed abit....

den i got some news.... haha... so sad... i got hidden for so long... was i didnt bother myself with this stuff.... den had a walk with gan mei... den walk with gan ge... den walk with both... yeah... that the happiest.... den wen back cos slightly hungry.... plus organiser cant go away so long... den got to know that chow and jeff came... yeah... so happy.... happily bbq stuff and food... bringing food... serving drinks... haha... so happy.... den ard 10.30pm... chow and jeff wan go back... thought of sending them... but john drove... so he sent them back... den we settle stuff... play poker upstairs... den see sally, siewlit, ck off ard 1 plus... den continue to play cards... den i took a small nap... den we wen out at 2.30 or 3.... forgot... haha... abit blur blur... den wan go lagoon eat... but due to it close... light off... so overshot... so drove back to mcdonald....

got a shock... cos saw police car park at the side.... die... cos too many people behind.... got 5 ppl behind... den had to find a carpark... den the police car follow... wahhh.... die.... shaking.... den found a place... reverse and park.... den the police car stop at the exit.... argg... den got abit blur... reverse till hit the tyres... haha.... den ask them faster go down first... den abit gan chiong... lock the car and check the car... found out never off the front light... haha... den off it... wen to find the others... the police car also wen off.... oh man.... heart still shaking....

den ate till 3 plus.. play 2 rounds of pool and wen back... cos everybody was tired.... den wen back... only me and adrian took some sleep... the others... wen out... play... watch sunrise.... woke up at 7am.... den wen to ahve breakfast with others... den sent weipeng, yik ching and jocelyn back first... as i got plan for gan ge and gan mei.... but sadly... gan mei receive call need go back at 1pm.... so no choice... went to bedok and return the camera which sally left over..... and went to eat... ate till 12 plus.... drove back to tampines... on the way... gan mei got a call say no need so early... so we change plan... go see uncle chow... but send gan mei home to put stuff first.... den straight we go uncle chow house... but cannot go inside... so wait outside... and we drove out... drove the car out the multi carpark... yeah.... i conquer it.... finally... no fear... qz... i conquer the multi carpark...

den drove gan mei to his father's stall... den we went to duno where and eat.... but sad... no coupon... den wen to buy a 50cent coupon from a uncle... den uncle chow eat... and we just drink... den sent them back... and drove back to the multi carpark.... den pass adrian the car key and wen home.... wen home... settle... bath... rest awhile... watch show watch till fall asleep... den cant take it... went to bed at 6.30am... and slept all the way to today morning.. haha.... wow.... haha... more more more.... more of this... den i can drive drive drive... haha... planning a car drive whole day... haha... photo wun upload here... will upload at my facebook... hehe...

2008-11-22T19:54:00.003+08:00

just now wen to my cousin kindergarden graduation at NYP... wow... i can say i really successful... especially his performance... the last and exciting part... now everyone know him as frog prince... haha.. shall upload the video for all to view.. haha.. the smallest and coolest frog prince...

busy day

2008-11-22T09:52:00.002+08:00

yest was a really busy day... kris has left our company with immediate effect on thursday.... i currently take over all her job... however... it too much... cos many thing she never 交待... haix... make me dun even have a time to drink or breath.... haix.... plus msg her no reply... seem she wan to make me die... haix.... left eyes keep twitching... see her... keep giving me those eyesight.... wahhh... duno can stand how long....

den yest didnt go class... work till i cannot tahan... headache... den no choice... skip class... left my notes in the office... and went off wih fiona, siewlit, derek and poh hoon... we went straight to clark quay... have dinner and beer there... den cos derek keep feeding poh hoon... den poh hoon say i jealous... den poh hoon ask derek to feed me.. i say dun wan.. is i feed people de... den at the same time i took a fries and feed fiona... haha... den derek second time feed... i also second time feed fiona... haha... so cute... den feed third time.... fiona abit dun wan... ask me eat... den i say my friends normally will get fat cos of me... cos i always feed them... haha... den fiona say later i die... haha... cos she will feed me... but a small fruit... ok for me... haha

den after that... we chatted... den derek, siewlit and fiona chatted... leave me and poh hoon to chat... den we felt got left out... den we suggest to leave and have our all time... haha.. den we walk one big round... den finally derek got abit of 良心to call us... haha... make me and poh hoon want to cry or laugh.... den wen we walk nearer... i saw derek calling me... den i call poh hoon and stop... den she walk back i walk front... we both knock each other... my head hit her mouthother ... haha... so pain... and swollen... den we laugh all the way back... are we drunk... haha... den we walk to the bridge... took some photos... den siewlit left early... den we continue to walk around awhile and shop...

and i saw a shop selling cute figurine that can light up off cartoon characters.... got my stitch... and elaine fav kuromi... so i bought... 3 for $10... but i brought six.. haha... i kept mine in my bag... another keep holding in my hand... haha... den wen back together with fiona cos same train.. den on the train keep thinking of stuff... luckily... i got my caribina out... fate make me have that... haha... just when the train reach my station... i click the plastic bag to the caribina.. and hook to fiona bag.. haha... she got a shock... yeah... a successful surprise... haha... yeah... today going to melvis concert at nyp... wonder how it be... haha.... yeah...

mr nice guy

2008-11-20T08:24:00.004+08:00

yest left at 5pm... due to i came at 7.30am... so when i went off by the back through the cargo lift... it was raining heavily... no choice took the lift to 3rd floor and go down by the front lift... den wanted to call taxi.. but forgot the whole procedure.... so forget it... took out my umbrella and wanted to walk out and wait outside.... den while i was taking out my umbrella... a uncle ask where i going... i said expo... he said he passing by.... can give me a lift... wow.... haha... thanks uncle... so i went up the car... den he ask me going where... i said going school at clementi... den he said best send me to bedok mrt better.... as he going bedok.... and i can save the time to transfer train.... the uncle so nice.... he is a supplier... supply us poly bag... know florence they all... haha... den talk to me about the company..... and ask me want go church... haha.... but thanks uncle...

in school... was thinking about company stuff... so i took out my phone to check if got msg... really got msg.... somemore from chow... so i went out and call him.... ok... something bad going to happen... i was actually shivering and trembling... partly due to the coldness.... but partly was cos of sadness and afraid... haiz... really cant imagine the end... it the decision make... cant undo anymore... well... can only pray....

farewell adrian

2008-11-19T13:13:00.002+08:00

yesterday had a small farewell lunch for 老豆, adrian..... haix... in this company for 1 year plus going 2.... been seeing people in and out.... non-stop.... haix.... so sad.... so fast those people i know de all go liao..... wonder when it be my turn... to ownself leave.... haha.... been looking out for jobs.... but... haha... haix.... sadded.... to sad to post anymore thing.... oh ya... yesterday work alittle OT... den got a lift from colleague to tampines... den took bus home from there.... near my house somewhere... saw yanxin... wow.... she quite a change... she was toking to a friend... den after her friend alight... she sat behind me... haha... didnt tok to her as i be stopping the next stop... also duno what to say... haha... next time... next time see her... sure greet her... haha...

心情大动员

2008-11-18T11:09:00.002+08:00

yest was watching the 心情大动员... was feeling quite sad for that family... thinking about it... felt myself very fortunate... den keep looking at christopher... haha.... cos he really a very nice guy.... even mami agree with me... saying gerls must find this kind of guys... den good... haha.. but good guys hard to find... so envy fann... but still wish to hear their good news soon...

wait... back to topic.... the show while filming half way... something happen... cos they need to clean... move everything... so they move some stuff to the lift that side as the corridor very small... might block people path.... however.... when their stuff was there.... the gas cylinder got stolen... i was like.... people already very poor and hard.... why still steal their stuff.... somemore police station downstairs.... the crew had no choice but to pay from their own pockets to buy the new gas cylinder for them which cost $57.... wow....

christopher and yifeng was commenting the person who took the cylinder.... hope he got 良心 when he/she cook the food... really true... hope he really got the 良心.... haix.... den later their can food also got stolen.. haix... 人心难测...